First scan in 1 week

[beautifuloaks]

I'm so nervous. I youtubed 10.3 week ultrasounds so I know what to expect. Last time the baby was still only a fetal pole at 8 weeks but I didn't know what to expecg so I got so excited when I saw the pole, only to learn that, I didn't want to see just a pole at 8 weeks.

But this time I should see a baby but I'm getting so nervous, I am trying to stay distracted but its not working.

And my husband just started his new job after 6 months of unemployment....and now....I don't think he will be able to come to this appointment. We can't risk him lossing his new job.

 

[livinginhope]

Aw, sweetie I know how you feel... I'm not even sure I want to go to a reassurance scan in a couple of weeks, as I had the same experience of seeing just a fetal pole at 8 weeks (being very sure of my dates as I was charting). Think I'll book one in anyway though, as it'd be better than waiting till 12 weeks to find out if all's okay...

I'm also trying not to think about it too much, as I'm sure it's the best solution... but of course my presence on here gives the game away somewhat, I am obviously failing to think about other stuff!

Have you got a close friend or family member who'd be able to go with you? It's such a great shame your DH might not be able to go with you, but I can totally understand why it might not be a good idea given the work circumstances...

*hugs* XXX

 

[beautifuloaks]

My doctor wanted to wait a little longer but I told her I was scared and I started crying so she agreed to do an early scan, part of me wants to wait till 12 but part of me wants to know right now.

I am going to ask if she will reassure me with a doppler at my 12 week appointment just to calm my nerves.

I'm just so scared all the tim. I'm constantly pushing on my boobs, making sure they still hurt and whenever my stomach gives me a moment of peace, it scares the crap out of me.

I'm a wreck.

 

[beautifuloaks]

I still the the pregnancy is good cause I do still have symptoms, last time I had symptoms for maybe three days before they went away...right around the time the baby died so its good that means I still have the hormones....

Ugh

I've lost my mind

 

[livinginhope]

I totally agree, it's enough to drive anyone crazy! I'm trying desperately not to obsess over my symptoms as they've been coming and going for the past two weeks... It sounds utterly daft to say this, but please try not to worry. It's great to hear your doc is sympathetic, over here you don't get any early attention unless you've had 3x MCs, so if you want reassurance you have to go outside the system and pay privately.

Will be thinking of you XXX

 

[beautifuloaks]

That really stinks.

I know my previous doctor had me scanned at 8 weeks, that when we founf out I was miscarrying, I wanted a scan at 8 but this new doctor refused but did budge for a 10 weeks scan. Which is less then a week away!

I just had a review at work today and found out that I got a promotion, so that is very distracting, and I have to work Saturday so that will help keep my mind occupied.

And my husband is going to ask his boss if he might be able to go to my appointment today, it can't hurt to ask. He really does want togo, but I told him that if he can't because of work, I understand we just can't risk him losing his job, but he has to go to my other scan. Iill video tape it on my phone if he can't go.

I just can't wait to see if everything is ok. I keep looking at the ultrasound picture that I have of my previous pregnancy, how small and tiny it was....and I'm hoping for a bouncing baby this time.

Ugh..... I'm tryiong not to worry I really am but.....

 

[livinginhope]

Hey, congrats on your promotion! Hope that's going some way to keeping your mind off worrying

Aw, fingers crossed your hubby's boss is understanding - as you say, if you don't ask, you don't get!

XXXX

 

[beautifuloaks]

Thank you.

My husband asked his boss, he had to kind of tell her what the appointment was for but once she knew what it was she said yes, he just asked that she not tell anyone.

Well my distractions have run out. Maybe TMI right here but I've had brown discharge again, third time. Its jjust a little and each time is like a week apart but now I am on high alert and again I'm petrified. I can't take my mind off of it. I know brown is better then red but still I'm scared.

I feel like I am walking on egg shells for no apparent reason. Nothing I do will make this pregnancy succed or fail but I still feel like everything I do will have a direct result on the baby. I know nothing that I did last time caused me to miscarry but I still feel like its my fault and I'm afraid I'm going to screw it up this time too. To no fault of my own....ugh.... am I making any sence?

 

[livinginhope]

Everything you're saying makes *so* much sense to me, because it's exactly how I feel - I can't help thinking that I've got to be careful and not take any risks, even though my miscarriages were down to *nothing* at all that I did.

Hee hee, I wouldn't worry, I don't think there's any such thing as TMI on this type of forum I'd find it impossible to follow my own advice if I were experiencing spotting, but please try not to worry, I've been told it's much more common than people think. I know that probably doesn't help much though, once you've had a loss it's impossible not to expect the worst on some level even if you're determined to think positively.

Have you got long to wait before that scan? I'm soooo glad your OH is able to go with you, it's lovely to hear that his boss was so understanding

XXX

 

[livinginhope]

Doh! After asking about how long you've got to wait I just re-read the post title...

 

[beautifuloaks]

Brown is ok ,red is bad

But it just scares me because last time I had brown discharge and that ended in a miscarriage, I can't help but think that maybe this one will too

 

[livinginhope]

Aw, this must be *agonizing* for you

I know it's probably easy to say and tricky to do, but don't give up hope yet - my doc told me that just because there are similar symptoms, it doesn't necessarily mean that the pregnancy will play out in a similar way as the previous one.

Is there any chance they'll bring the scan forward, so you don't have to wait? I'd have though this could be reason enough for the doc to make that call...

 

[livinginhope]

Hey, I just read another post on here where a lady had brown spotting and was panicking, but then went on to find out all was well with her little beanie

It's on https://www.babyandbump.com/pregnancy-after-loss/974805-absolutely-petrified.html, you'll have to read down a bit as it's not the OP but one of the ladies who responded.

Hope it gives you some hope/comfort XXXXX

 

[Feisty Fidget]

I have the sprout app on my itouch and it actually states not to be surprised if you experience brown spotting as it is old blood from implantation Still coming through.

I had an early scan last week at 6 weeks but baba was measuring at only just 5 and it scared the living crap out of me Scans in the first tri are not always such a good thing I have another booked for Monday to check for progress, fingers crossed!

 

[beautifuloaks]

Good luck at your scan! Early scans can be a curse sometimes.