Thanks to I_am_Livid, we have all learnt the reasons why some mums decided on FF and the thread has been a real eye opener for some mums and has hopefully taught us to not judge so quickly. It also got me thinking... Why did you choose to BF? What were your reasons behiind this choice, especially if you struggled to begin with, but persevered, when in this day and age there is the option to FF? The reason I ask is because I am a BF mum but I have to say with all my kids it was a reall struggle. WIth my firstborn I developed really bad mastitits after just four days and had to take strong antibiotics and stop BFing him for a few days until it cleared up. For the first two weeks every time he latched on, I would literally scream in pain. But my mum begged me to just give it two weeks as she insisted that the pain goes after this time. So I decided after 2 weeks if it was no better, I'd give it up. Thankfully like she said, by week two the pain had gone, the mastititis cleared up and my little fella had learnt how to suckle properly and we were off! After that I loved it and I BF him for 9 months. With the twins I knew it would be more of a struggle but I figured I've done it before, I can surely do it again. Two boobs, two babies, no problem! Wrong!! The boys were tiny so would tire very easily and couldnt latch on properly to bgein with. I found myself BFing and expressing ALL day - that's all I did. THe pain was bad and getting worse by the day. Rather than the pain dissapearing after 2 weeks like it did with DS1, it got worse. I thought about giving up countless of times. Why torture myself I wondered, when there are alternatives. But the guilt (and my mum again!) wouldnt let me. So I persevered. I guess I kept thinking I had to give the twins the same beginning I gave DS1. I am still BFing. But I am constantly tired, emotional and hungry! I feel like a milk machine and all I seem to do is BF. Don't get me wrong, I love it. Because the only real one to one bonding time I get with each twin, is when I BF them. I love the way they stroke and pat the boob while feeding. Love the way they have thrived and got so chubby just on breastmilk. But it's been very tough and sometimes I feel that i've had to sacrifice the time I used to have with DS1 playing and doing stuff with him, to BF the twins. Every time he wants something from me, I find myself telling him I'm busy feeding the boys. It's really affected him too - he actually has asked me a couple of times if he can "have a turn" once the boys have finished! He's jealous of the time & cuddles they are getting with me. So back to my question. For me I sometimes feel maybe I should have FF the twins so that I had more time with DS1 and that i wouldn't have felt so drained all the time. So why did you choose to BF? Did you struggle and do you think it's been worth it?