I have since calmed down of course and realize pregnancy is not the enemy...just the crappy hormones that go with it...but I ended up getting so upset I think I made myself sick for awhile this afternoon and still trying to shake the headache...It was just one of those days where everything started horrible and spiraled down from there...kids had issues at school (had to take care of it and remain calm while doing it), company wanted to come over (really was not in a mental/emotional place to handle company), insurance wanted to be a dumb dumb (when are they not), and lastly there is a "surprise" baby shower for me in November that would be a "surprise" except everyone has slipped up except the host lol...anyway...thought I was going to have to drive THREE hours next month by myself (dang near 9 months pregnant at that time) to go because of school schedule and work schedule conflicts with my family...was just one of those overly emotional days...90% of the stuff worked itself out...the other 10% is being drowned out by the sound of my pounding head and I am about to tell the kiddos to please be good and quiet and let me lay down for awhile...
Thank you ladies for understanding and just offering support...it gets really hard on days like today because my best friend is a late sleeper (really late) so I couldn't call her to vent and OH works both days and nights with only a few hours in between (wasn't home at the time) and I am not much of a social butterfly in real life so this place is kind of my sounding board when I get to that point where I can't handle it anymore without spewing a rant somewhere..
so thank you again...