Can't think what best to call it but I am getting increasingly worried about my 'obsession' of my baby being a girl. I only have my girl name sorted, though not intentionally, I keep wanting to buy 'pink' things, and last night was the worst, I had THE most real dream ever that I was at my scan and they said it was a girl and I was over the moon. This may well be instinct but something tells me I could also be very wrong and the guilt I will feel if it is a boy will be terrible. It is like I am so excited thinking it is a girl and how over the moon I will be, I can't explain why it has to be a girl but I am racked with guilt that my little one is in there so innocent and could be a boy and I don't want to feel any disappointment whatsoever. I love my baby so so much whatever, I am just dreading the moment of being told and how I will react. It is only 9 days away now.. I am actually nearly crying typing this. I hate myself.