We went to visit my OH's family on the weekend, and his 18 month old cousin took a shine to me and wouldnt let go of my fingers all the way to the car and then let me put him in his high chair. Then at his aunts, I played that game with him where you pretend to drop them but dont and he was giggling his face off and then got sad when I had to go home. I know it's probable that noone cares, but I feel so much better about being a mother. I felt like I was capable. NB: I know that looking after babies isnt all giggles and fun times but I still feel better.