I had a virtual happy hour with my coworkers. I was the only one drinking something non-alcoholic. Not because I’m pregnant or a non-drinker, but because as an exhausted single mom I had to pick up my kid at the end of the short get together. The only time my coworker had to hold her 4 month old was while her husband, who has my dream job that I lost due to my abusive ex literally he’s at my school site on my on team in the room next to my old room, made her a drink. She didn’t have to leave when her baby cried. She was free to enjoy herself. I’ve dipped my toes in the dating world and it’s a hard no thank you. But I worked so hard in my life that’s it’s hard to not feel entitled to something easier. I have parents who are quick to remind me that I knew my Ex was an ass and I chose to have my son vs the alternative knowing I’d end up a single mom but no mantra or meditation or whatever makes it easier. And at least before I had support but my parents And brother are high risk so now I have no support except that I get an hour or two a day where I don’t work and he’s at daycare. Just venting really.