Since having my daughter, I have feel a totally useless mother, everything I seem to do doesn't seem to stop her crying, even though I do take care of her physical needs well. I feel she doesn't think anymore of me than my mother or brother, just another carer I actually dread waking up in the morning, to face another day of screaming etc. All I want to do is sleep. I feel trapped I feel totally sexless, I had a bad time with my ex, as he has totally turned his back on me since her birth, I almost hate men I have a terrible self image, I must of put on a stone since giving birth I don't even want to face the postman or anyone, I just want to lock myself in and not face the world, I avoid shopping at all costs I feel there is no hope in my future, I just feel like I am this mothering robot till she reaches 18 then I will be in my 50's and will be heading for my coffin lol! having said all of this I love my baby, but I am having a hard time ajusting from being single, to a single mum, I have support from my elderly mum and brother, I should be grateful, I dunno whats up with me How do I get out of this rut, and feel there is hope again?