I am really nervous and trying not to get excited. We first got pregnant in June, we weren't trying. Not even a week later, I've got a short list of symptoms and I know I'm pregnant. I hadn't been thinking babies just yet, but when I realized what was going on, I was ecstatic. This was my first pregnancy and so it just seemed certain everything would go to plan. Day 25 I had light brown bleeding, which I thought was implantation bleeding. But then after a few days, It was more and more and I had my period one day late. I had taken multiple test - I got a bfn on all the pink ones and faint positive on a blue one. I was worried a chemical was in my future and of course I was right. We tried again in July - same thing, symptoms right away, period on time, and again in November. I started following my ovulation is October and realized I was ovulating about I week late. We decided to take a month of and tried again at the end of December. I actually ovulated right on time, but did not have symptoms right away so figured I was out. But then about a week ago I started having symptoms and on day 25 I had a little bit of brown spotting. I should have started my period today and nothing. I don't want to get my hopes up this time. I don't want to calculate another due date. I'm scared to get attached again, only to be devasted. I'm tired of seeing negative pregnancy tests and don't want to take another. I haven't even told my husband that, as of right now, we're still in the game for this month. The wait is excruciating. Every time
I go to the bathroom, waiting to see if there is blood or not. I know this is long, but I just needed to get it off of my chest. I can't say it aloud, I'm afraid it'll end.
I go to the bathroom, waiting to see if there is blood or not. I know this is long, but I just needed to get it off of my chest. I can't say it aloud, I'm afraid it'll end.