Today I am feeling pretty shitty. My 10 month old son is clinging onto me for dear life so I just cant get anything done. My other two boys are trashing the house and raiding the kitchen every 5 minutes. I am broke until my cheque from work clears as my boss decided to pay my mat leave by cheque instead of cash. My Mum has the whole weekend off but hasnt even offered to take the kids out to the park for half an hour or anything. If I go round there I feel unwelcome and like I am in the way. I just feel all alone. I know that in 10 weeks time when this baby arrives they will be flocking round like flies around shit as she will be the first girl born in the family. Where are my family when I really need them???