Having a negative day

[Hopefulk]

And can't snap out of it!

We had a scan on 30/04 and bubbaloo measured 8+6
On 10/05 measured 10+2 which was perfect. I've found an academic piece of research based on 325 women with 2or3 previous losses and once a hb was seen at 10 weeks, 99.4% went on to have a live baby

BUT...

I can't stop thinking that there will be bad news at Tuesday's scan

I don't want to be negative and I'm not sure if this is me just protecting myself subconsciously. I should be twelve weeks in Tuesday so I had been pinning all my hopes on this - if it goes well its everything to us (although there are still no guarantees) so I wonder if it's because we have more to lose that I'm so scared?

I can't live every day feeling this way... I just want to feel normal about it all!

Anybody else feel the same?

Sorry for moaning / the rant! Just needed to get it out

K.x

 

[brittybird]

Hey there Hopefulk! I was on a different forum talking to you 1-2 weeks ago. We had about the same dates, and we both had good appointments on May 10th. I go back in next Thursday to hear the heartbeat again. I completely understand how nerve-wrecked you are! But you have to try and stay positive Its much easier said than done though. The stats are in your favor I hope your having a better day today than yesterday.

 

[keepthefaithx]

i just stubbled on here..im not pregnant. but honestly when i am again, no more online research, sometimes its better not to jam all negativity in your head and cause stress which is not good!

take care hunni, just relax and im sure everything will be fine!

 

[felicity0444]

Hopefulk- I am 7+2 following a mc at 6wks. I got pregnant a week after my mc. I completely understand! I am such a positive person about everything...except this. Don't get me wrong i have my good days, but the majority of every day is spent expecting the worst. Part of it (for me) is that i am feeling the same way this time as last time...which didn't end well. MOST of it is self preservation though. I fully admit that i am trying to protect myself in the hopes that if it happens again it will be easier (not rational i know). At my 6+5 scan the baby was measuring 6+2 and i know that isn't a big difference, but well....u know. Now i am worried constantly. I am really really trying to stay positive and accept that for now my baby is just fine. It doesn't help that i am so over emotional right now. I went into the rainbow babies thread...BIG mistake!!! It tore me apart reading the stories that are there...and seeing peoples notes under their posts that show how long their babies were in their lives for...i weeped like a baby at my desk at work. One thing that helps me is knowing that i am doing absolutely everything i can to ensure that my little bean is getting everything it needs. I wish there was more we could do, but there's not, so i am trying to accept that. I also give my baby bean little pep talks all the time. lol. I say "Don't worry baby mommy's here" and "You can do it! Grow strong and healthy" It probably sounds weird, and i know it's more for me than the baby, but it helps. I'm sorry you're so down. Try not to worry sweetie...