Hi ladies, Had a hospital apponitment today to check on Bella's heart murmur which was discovered a couple of months ago. Saw the Pediatrition today and he confirmed she has what he thinks is a small hole in her heart between the two lower ventricles. He thinks it's a small hole because it's making a loud noise, apparently the smaller the hole, the louder the murmur. He says its called Ventricular Septal Defect (VSD). He says it may just close on it's own and he doesn't think there is any need to be worried, he's ordered further tests and scans just to be sure, which i'll get an appointment for in around 8 weeks. He thinks it's going to be a case of check ups every 6 months and he says it shouldn't affect her life so not to do anything different. Problem is, now i'm so worried. I've been told there is a hole in the organ that keeps my baby alive and all sorts of crazy thoughts are running through my head. I've been so watchful of her this afternoon it's crazy, panic runs through me every time she gets a little short of breath (which is crazy as she's been running around in the heat all afternoon so she's bound to be short of breath therefore having nothing to do with her heart!!!!!) I'd be nice to hear from mummies that have been through this, how do you cope????!?!?!??!?! I feel like i'm going a little crazy!