Heartbroken after my RE appt

[ilovecheese]

Went to the RE today. He suggested I get an u/s to see what's going on with my follicles, and if any are ready, do an HCG shot and then we could even do the IUI this cycle. Sounds great right? I mean, I *am* at CD 20.

They squeezed me in for the u/s [which is NOT covered by my insurance btw], just to find out that I had a bunch of teeny follicles, all measuring under 10mm!!! What the f*&^! I immediately start crying and DBF is holding my hand, trying to comfort me. Not only did I waste this money on the u/s but now the Clomid isn't working!

Meet back up with the RE. Apparently my endometrium is at 20.74mm [which is very thick I guess] and he thinks it would be best to start the Provera again, b/c it looks like it could be another 2 weeks before I ovulate, since my follicles are so freaking teeny. He said the good news is that I seem to be responding SOMEWHAT to the Clomid b/c I have a bunch of signs of increased estrogen- the fertile CM, CP, the thick lining on my uterus... so he thinks I have a very good chance that a higher dose of Clomid will work. I told him I was worried about the Provera not working and he said with a lining that thick, I should have NO trouble at all.

Next cycle, he want to go to 100mg of Clomid- I talked to him about doing it CD 3-7 and he said that there is no studies that prove for sure that doing it earlier = more follies, but he said studies have shown it's been just as effective either way as far as pregnancy rates etc go, so he's fine with me taking it earlier, with the possibility that I could have more follies and more targets for the spermies.

On CD 11, he wants to do another u/s to check follies- I think he could see how frazzled I was and thought that a more monitored cycle would be better. I told him straight up, I said, "I am just so freaking tired- so stressed out about all this." When my follies are ready, I will have a trigger shot [which I have to give myself- yikes!], and then an IUI two days later.

If you got this far, thanks for reading... I guess I am just so upset that this cycle is a bust.

 

[Blue12]

Sorry to hear what you have been through hun.

 

[lynne192]

hugs hun can sympathise today i feel like gutted fish had lap and dye yesterday only got one working tube huge amount of other problems, blood uterus and pcos related, 150mg clomid only end in ectopic, three years ttc and completely deflated myself, hope things work out for you hun, know theres always light at the end of the tunnel x

 

[HappyDaze]

I can totally sympathise - last cycle was a complete bust for us too. I went in on CD11 to have a scan to see if we could do the IUI the following day, and I had already ov'd the day before so we missed it... was totally gutted to have had the whole cycle taken out of the equation, with the added stress that i was ov'ing so early, before my endo lining was even thick enough for implantation. But now I'm back at CD8 on my next cycle and going in for scan in a couple of days and hopefully we can have better luck this time round - onward and upward, positive thinking etc.

I think it's great that you are going to be monitored more closely this cycle - it will give you a much bettter idea of what is going on which will hopefully help you feel more positive. I find it v comforting having the u/s scans as there's no guesswork - it's there on the screen to see in plain sight, even if what you see isn't what you always want to! Good Luck x

 

[ilovecheese]

I find it v comforting having the u/s scans as there's no guesswork - it's there on the screen to see in plain sight, even if what you see isn't what you always want to! Good Luck x

That's how I feel too. I'd rather know than not. I just can't believe this is happening to me- ME. I've always been fertile. Now it's me AND my DBF.