It took us fifteen years to conceive Saffron Rose. My water broke first thing in the morning one day before 19 weeks. I knew I lost her.... but the worst part was when I got to the hospital she had a heartbeat and looked perfectly fine, just couldn't develop any further. So I had to make the awful choice to remove her surgically or do labor and deliver her myself before infection set in. I chose labor because surgically, they would take her apart. She was beautiful. My husband was in shock and kept saying she looked so much like me. Now I'm completely broken with no idea how to come out of this. It would help if there was a reason but they couldn't find one and she was perfect.