It hurts to be back again after BFP and all the hope it brought and then the crushing disapontment, sadness and anger of the loss. Here is my story. We have been trying since last November after talking about it for many years. On the 12 of september í got my BFP and we were as happy as can be. I did this big announcement to my DH with gifts telling him he was going to be the best dad. He bought many more hpt and we wached the second line show up together thinking of this miracle blessing that we had made and talked about the amazing future that we were creating. I had some spotting that turned into á bleeding. I talked to 4 midwifes and 1 doctor and none of them wanted do an early ultrasound even tho í really was begging. They all said that some bleeding was normal and told me to just do bedrest. Last saturday night i had the worst pain í have ever felt in the right site of my tummy. It turned out to be an ectopic rupture and lost my baby and my right tube. I had been painlessly bleeding for almost 2 weeks before the rupture. I really want to ttc again but i have to wait for 2 weeks to even have sex again and even long er to BD again. I fear that ttc is becoming an obsession for me. Im still hurting from the surgery and i know my system probably wont work correctly for a while but i just cant stop thinking about having a child. I feel like my body has betrayed me and im just so angry, frustrated and sad. I lost my baby. Part of me feels like i am betraying my baby by wanting to get pregnant again right away. The healthcare where i live is not in its best state althoug the staff that did the operation was wery kind Í feel like i am not geting enough information about my chances of sucsessful pregnancy after ectopic. Have any of you had á sucsessful pregnancy after ectopic rupture. How long did you have to wait to ttc again?