babytots
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hi girls hope you don't mind me joining in here i'm not really sure if i belong here but i'm hoping some people are in the same or similar situation to what i am.
i already have 2 gorgeous daughters who i am very thankful and cherise them each and everyday.
in april this year i fell pregnant unexpectedly and although was a shock me and my partner were over the moon. sadly i m/c'd this baby in may at 8 weeks. after the grieve had started to fade i wanted to ttc as i really wanted another baby df wasnt so sure but agreed as he had got used to the idea of having a 3rd child. i fell pg 6 weeks after my m/c and all was going well. i had a scan at what i thought was 9+4 due to them being unsure of my dates to be told there was no h/b and i had an eprc 3 days later.
now my df has said no more babies and although i've stopped grieving for the babies i've lost everyday i'm grieving for the babies i thought i may have in the future that i'm never going to have.
my partner says he can't go through another pregnancy again as he can't bear going through another m/c. totally understandble as i feel the same to an extent but i know i have 2 healthy daughters and know i can have healthy babies and want to give it a chance as if i don't i know a) i'll regret it for the rest of my life and b) i'll start to resent him.
i just don't know how to cope with it all. i've always loved children since an early age and couldnt wait to have my own and i imagined having a big family now i'll never get that chance to have a big family. i want to experience having a son and give my daughters a brother to play with.(although another daughter be just as nice as long as the baby is healthy)
sometimes i really hate jason as i can't beleive hes willing to see me hurt so much and not do anything to ease that pain. he said he doesnt like seeing me unhappy yet hes the one causing it all and wont do anything to make it right again.
i have it rubbed in my face everyday too. my next door neighbour is pregnant and due a week after i was, a friend has just given birth to a little boy,another has announced her pregnany and many more are halfway through their pregnancy and i feel there is no escape from it all and it makes me feel even worse.
he knows this and knows if we were ttc and i got pregnant i would be happy so why is he willing to see me unhappy.
sorry for the rant but i'm hoping you all can understand how i feel.
like i say i'm grateful for the 2 girls i'm blessed with but don't feel like my family is complete yet. x
i already have 2 gorgeous daughters who i am very thankful and cherise them each and everyday.
in april this year i fell pregnant unexpectedly and although was a shock me and my partner were over the moon. sadly i m/c'd this baby in may at 8 weeks. after the grieve had started to fade i wanted to ttc as i really wanted another baby df wasnt so sure but agreed as he had got used to the idea of having a 3rd child. i fell pg 6 weeks after my m/c and all was going well. i had a scan at what i thought was 9+4 due to them being unsure of my dates to be told there was no h/b and i had an eprc 3 days later.
now my df has said no more babies and although i've stopped grieving for the babies i've lost everyday i'm grieving for the babies i thought i may have in the future that i'm never going to have.
my partner says he can't go through another pregnancy again as he can't bear going through another m/c. totally understandble as i feel the same to an extent but i know i have 2 healthy daughters and know i can have healthy babies and want to give it a chance as if i don't i know a) i'll regret it for the rest of my life and b) i'll start to resent him.
i just don't know how to cope with it all. i've always loved children since an early age and couldnt wait to have my own and i imagined having a big family now i'll never get that chance to have a big family. i want to experience having a son and give my daughters a brother to play with.(although another daughter be just as nice as long as the baby is healthy)
sometimes i really hate jason as i can't beleive hes willing to see me hurt so much and not do anything to ease that pain. he said he doesnt like seeing me unhappy yet hes the one causing it all and wont do anything to make it right again.
i have it rubbed in my face everyday too. my next door neighbour is pregnant and due a week after i was, a friend has just given birth to a little boy,another has announced her pregnany and many more are halfway through their pregnancy and i feel there is no escape from it all and it makes me feel even worse.
he knows this and knows if we were ttc and i got pregnant i would be happy so why is he willing to see me unhappy.
sorry for the rant but i'm hoping you all can understand how i feel.
like i say i'm grateful for the 2 girls i'm blessed with but don't feel like my family is complete yet. x