ruthb
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Well got a BFP today after being two days late, I really can't believe it. My partner and I had sex just once over two weeks ago, he was drunk and didnt pull out, i was still tracking my cycle and being 5 days before ovulation i thought chances were pretty slim, also i planned to get the morning after pill but that went down the pan when my son was up most of the night so i slept all the next day! I remember being so extatic when I got pregnant with my first but all I've done is cry since finding out, I know there's people who struggle for years to get pregnant and I should count myself lucky but it's just not what I planned for.
Basically my partner is older than me, he wanted kids soon but i was still at uni and wanted to get a good job first. We decided to have one (my now 10 month old son) and then i would finish my degree get the job i wanted then after a few years have a second. Now it looks like I won't be able to finish this year at uni (I study chemistry so can't do the lab aspect of my course), won't be able to start any of the dream jobs I've been applying for as they all start in September which is when baby will be due. We are already struggling financially and I wonder how long it will be before I can work again, I don't think I'd be able to get a job good enough to cover the cost of putting two children in childcare. Oh and my sister is getting married in september abroad meaning I won't be able to go and we've already booked up (cost nearly 4k!!) My head is a mess. I haven't told my partner yet and feel so angry at him right now, although it's my fault as well and I know pull out method isn't fool proof but how could he be so stupid. It doesn't help that I already feel that he doesn't do enough for my son (always me who baths him, puts him to bed etc) and we've had a lot of arguments about this and him going out too much. Sorry for the rant I'm trying to see the positive side of things but just so hard at the minute.
Basically my partner is older than me, he wanted kids soon but i was still at uni and wanted to get a good job first. We decided to have one (my now 10 month old son) and then i would finish my degree get the job i wanted then after a few years have a second. Now it looks like I won't be able to finish this year at uni (I study chemistry so can't do the lab aspect of my course), won't be able to start any of the dream jobs I've been applying for as they all start in September which is when baby will be due. We are already struggling financially and I wonder how long it will be before I can work again, I don't think I'd be able to get a job good enough to cover the cost of putting two children in childcare. Oh and my sister is getting married in september abroad meaning I won't be able to go and we've already booked up (cost nearly 4k!!) My head is a mess. I haven't told my partner yet and feel so angry at him right now, although it's my fault as well and I know pull out method isn't fool proof but how could he be so stupid. It doesn't help that I already feel that he doesn't do enough for my son (always me who baths him, puts him to bed etc) and we've had a lot of arguments about this and him going out too much. Sorry for the rant I'm trying to see the positive side of things but just so hard at the minute.