Cloberella
Mummy to Gabriel
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First off I'll start by saying I don't want another baby right now, I'm still traumatised from having my little boy early. But I do want another in a couple of years.
The problem is my partner isn't sure about having another baby. He says we should see what life is like with Gabriel first and he's worried about the financial aspect, about having another early baby, about me being depressed when I'm pregnant again and my SPD. This makes me feel like I did my last pregnancy all wrong.
I know they are all valid concerns but I honestly cannot imagine never having another child. When we planned this baby we said that ideally we would have four kids and I'm finding it hard adjusting to imagining a completely different future to the one I've dreamed of (A noisy house with lots of kids).
And I know it sounds stupid but I kind of want the chance to redeem myself, I need to prove to myself that my body isn't broken and I can carry a baby to full term.
I feel awful for feeling this way because I should be happy with my happy, healthy little boy, its just that all I've ever wanted is to be a mother, and this not knowing whether I will ever have another baby is getting me down.
Does anyone else feel this way?
TIA
The problem is my partner isn't sure about having another baby. He says we should see what life is like with Gabriel first and he's worried about the financial aspect, about having another early baby, about me being depressed when I'm pregnant again and my SPD. This makes me feel like I did my last pregnancy all wrong.
I know they are all valid concerns but I honestly cannot imagine never having another child. When we planned this baby we said that ideally we would have four kids and I'm finding it hard adjusting to imagining a completely different future to the one I've dreamed of (A noisy house with lots of kids).
And I know it sounds stupid but I kind of want the chance to redeem myself, I need to prove to myself that my body isn't broken and I can carry a baby to full term.
I feel awful for feeling this way because I should be happy with my happy, healthy little boy, its just that all I've ever wanted is to be a mother, and this not knowing whether I will ever have another baby is getting me down.
Does anyone else feel this way?
TIA