oh thank god im not the only one! dont worry about feeling scared crapless... my mum has told me that it is perfectly natural... i most definately get huge waves of anxieties and fear about having this little boy... it doesnt make you a bad person. not at all. cause if it does, then i am right there with you hunny. i love my little boy... he wasnt totally planned and he is my first... i am only 19 and my hubby and i have been together for four years... married for one, but yea... i get these waves of emotions like, what the hell am i doing!?!?! did i make a mistake!?!?! should we have waited a little bit longer!?!?! why was i in such a hurry!?!?! but in the end, when my little man wiggles around in my womb, i am reminded again of the tiny miracle that God has given me... the precious little creation that my body was specially designed to make and care for...
yea, i am scared out of my wits at the prospect of having another life relying on me completely, 24/7, for the rest of my life. its an absolutely terrifying prospect, but in my opinion, God wont give you more then he knows that you can handle...
so yea, i am right there with you hun on the fear... but dont worry, it will all be wonderful when you have that little precious child looking up at you...