Hormones or am I going crazy

[831]

Hi all,

Just wondering if anyone else out there is weirded out by being pregnant. I am at 29 weeks and keep wavering back and forth about having a baby inside me (happy or sad). (I know a bit late huh?) This is my first pregnancy and I had never planned on children before meeting my husband. Adoption only if anything. We celebrate 10 years next month and this was only brought up in the past 5 years. So we decided it was time and now I am a bit in shock. I am very happy at moments, but then there are the "wth" feelings. I feel her move, but it still seems surreal that in 3 months I'll be birthing a person. Might just be in shock. Not sure. I don't even feel pregnant most days, just crappy and fat. I have so much gas, I'm not even sure everything I am feeling is our little one. Any encouraging words ladies?

 

[831]

Guess I AM all by myself on this one. Sorry to put up such a stupid topic.

 

[absmum2be]

It may be hormones but I feel like that time to time. I think because it's our first we have so many different emotions running through us right now and I think it's just the mix. This is life changing and very scary, also exciting and wonderful! I think it won't hit us it's real until we have LO in our arms. Your not alone though hun! x

 

[mitchnorm]

You are not alone......I am very often freaked out about bringing a baby into the world...I am 38 and everyone thought I was the person least expected to have a child. I think I always thought that too. Body clock was late to kick in....only met my now husband 4 years ago and tick tock........

I am sure none of us will have these doubts ' have we done the right thing' after our LOs come along ...thats what I am banking on.

Good luck x x x

 

[MillieJoan]

We planned this pregnancy and I really, really wanted (still want) to have a baby. But I've definitely had my moments over the last nine months where I've felt overwhelmed, and times when none of it's really seemed real. It's hard sometimes to associate all the bizarre changes that have gone on in my body--even when she's moving around--with a whole new person who's going to be my responsibility. And I'm like you--I absolutely always said I wanted to adopt if I ever had kids (terrified of birth!), but then I met my husband and realized that if I could, I wanted his kids. But pregnancy has always seemed a little sci-fi to me lol.

 

[youngmommy2]

Look at what a bizarre and new thing we are going through.. to grow a human inside our abdomens.. its scary and i dont think its just hormones.. our lives are about to be changed forever.. its normal to feel like this

 

[ReReKitty]

You definitely are not alone. The ENTIRE first half of my pregnancy I felt really weird about being pregnant. I always wanted to have children. We were TTC for months. Then the timing was all off, we stopped TTC due to family problems and emergency savings was used up and it was a terrible time to bring a baby into our family. Yet the very month we stopped is the month we got pregnant. I wasn't even happy at first. I cried when I saw the "pregnant" result because what was once the "plan" was now the most frightening thought- being a mother?!?! Whaaat!!! Well after the initial shock I was over the moon and everything was getting better, our savings was replenishing and such. Even though I wasn't upset over being pregnant, I felt... weird about it. My emotions were so distorted that when I thought about the baby inside me I was honestly a little grossed out. A little "parasite" was sucking my blood and depositing waste and just the thought of something living inside of me was the single most disturbing thing sometimes. This was all during the first trimester, though. I had severe depression- my doctor wanted me to go on meds but I am 100% against all meds (even tylenol) so I went to therapy instead. Everything is so much better, I'm starting to really bond with this little one. Honestly I feel terrible about how I perceived pregnancy. I never expected to feel disturbed by pregnancy- I was obsessed with pregnancy for years (not becoming pregnant- just the magic of it all). Everything about it was beautiful to me. Until I was actually pregnant myself. I feel guilty over the initial "uhhh... ew?" thoughts. Now I feel surreal about it and I'm 36 weeks. I feel like I've only been pregnant for a month. I want it to last longer because 4 weeks just isn't enough time to have her all to myself anymore!!! Good luck!