horrible gut feeling it's over

[croydongirl]

This is my first post on this thread, it's hard to explain to anyone who hasn't been there before.

I have conceived twice before, once in February by accident. That pregnancy ended in m/c at just before 6 weeks and then we decided to try for a baby and got pregnant first time last cycle but we lost that pregnancy before 5 weeks.

Both times, I had bad cramping and just this sinking feeling that something was wrong. Without having a cycle inbetween, we have fallen pregnant again. I took a FRER test yesterday and got a definite positive! I was excited but have kept it at bay because getting the two lines is just the start of a hard waiting game for hubby and I. Today I am 14dpo (4w 1d pregnant)

Last night I was up for 2 hours with severe cramping had to take some Tylenol and fell back asleep sure I would wake up bleeding. Woke up. No blood yet.

Stretching cramps pretty constant this morning just waiting for blood when I pee. Cramping eased a little this afternoon but is still on and off.

Had a spot of very diluted watery brown discharge a few hours ago and was sure that was the beginning of the end, my heart sank when I saw it.

A few hours on and still no bleeding. Cramping still here and backache too. Praying this will fade and we will continue to a healthy pregnancy but have a heavy heart that this one is ending just like the other, before they really started.

Feeling so overwhelmed and sad about a loss that I just FEEL is coming.

Jesus please give us a miracle

 

[lissa99a]

Praying for you. You are right, I can't begin to know how you feel. No matter how much we try, we can never truly put ourselves in another's shoes.
Try to take comfort in Jesus, as He IS the ultimate comforter. Prayers are being sent your way. For a miracle. Or, at the very least, some comfort and peace while you wait to find out.

 

[BabyQ]

You poor thing, what should be such an exciting time...

Please try and keep positive, the feeling you have is just in your mind, your body is in control of what's happening. A lot of ladies suffer pain and discomfort at the start, particularly if it's around the time you would normally be having a period. Keep your head and heart up girl!

 

[croydongirl]

Thanks ladies, we're still hanging in here. Bleeding hasn't started so we still have hope x

 

[Emmea12uk]

I hope this Is just the baby settling in.

 

[ncmommy]

Keeping everything x'd for you!

Will you be going to the doctors to get your hcg levels checked?

 

[Mom23monkies]

God Bless You!!~
loosing a baby is one of the hardest things I have ever had to go thru.
It is difficult
You keep thinking "God wouldent let this happen AGAIN would he?"
I will pray for you so very sincerely.
I hope you get your Miricle if not I hope you can find comfort.
God Bless and keep you close

 

[Kapow]

Hope your OK. I had awful stomach cramps from 4 to 5 weeks and was sure AF was on her way. Hopefully yours will settle down too. GL. xx

 

[croydongirl]

Hope your OK. I had awful stomach cramps from 4 to 5 weeks and was sure AF was on her way. Hopefully yours will settle down too. GL. xx

Thanks for the reassurance. I know it is impossible for any of us to truly KNOW whats going on with each others bodies, but knowing you are not alone and others have gone there before is such a comfort.

 

[hippylittlej]

It can be normal to have cramps, pain and bleeding. It is difficult to not worry about MC when you have been through one before. I never thought of MC when I had cramps until I started bleeding at 10 weeks. But I know when I get pregnant again I am going to be analysing each twinge. I hope everything stays ok.

 

[faun]

Hopefully everything will be ok i will be thinking of you

I know exactly what you mean though by just knowing its over i had 3 miscarriages and each time it was at 10-12 weeks just before the scan or found out at the scan it was awful but each time i already knew deep down and had done for a while (hard to explain)

On a positive note though the last time i got pregnant after a year off to recover emotionally i just knew i would be bringing a baby home i was sat on the loo thinking i need to decorate in here before we bring the baby home this was at 6 weeks and now i have a nearly one year old.

 

[AP]

Croydongirl i have had all what you have described in my pregnancy, there is still hope

 

[Pippin]

Could be stretching pains hon, really hope so. xxxx