Hi ladies, just wondered how everyone was getting on? and needed abit of a rant (sorry) you're the only people that understand. i wish i could be one of those ntnp people, i just cant do it. I was so proud of myself this month when af arrived, no tears and was actually quite positive thiking have a nice christmas dont think about baby making and have a nice month....... well i'm only on cd4 and i'm up and down like a yo-yo.... first big slap in the face, seen someone on facebook i know is preggers, dont know why it upset me so much cos i dont even really know her anymore grand total 6 people i know preggers. Then today a friend txt me to say she'd just had her scan and everything was fine, great!!! I'm just not sure that i'm the right person to tell as the last 12wk scan i had was a VERY different story. On the other hand i go through real positive moods thinking everythign is ok and it'll happen when it happens ..... but the downers are so bad. My greatest fear is i will never get pregnant again followed by getting pregnant and something going wrong again. I just dont believe it CAN happen, i didnt want a big age gap between little ones but it's just not worked out that way, i feel like everyday that passes i'm loosing time. I know that this stress is not helping us concieve but i dont know how to stop it...... any tips gratefully recieved. so sorry for going on thanks for listening. How is everyone else coping with the wait..... how are you ntnp girls doing it??? Anyone else as weird as me??!!!!