I currently have 4 children (6,4,2&3 months) all girls, but my husband has said he absolutely doesn’t want anymore. (#4 was an earlier than planned surprise) I was pretty sure I was done whilst pregnant with #4, but over the last few weeks I’m really really sad that I’ll never ever go through pregnancy/labour again. Also as soon as she was born I had a niggly disappointment that she wasn’t a boy. It sounds ridiculous but I feel like I’m grieving over the little boy I’ll never have. Gender was NEVER on my mind until that last pregnancy, and I didn’t care what they were, but now I’m longing for a boy! I’m also just not ready for that stage of my life to be over... it’s what I do. Breastfeeding, tiny babies and toddlers. It’s my life. How do you deal with it being ‘the end’ even though you’re not ready? I’ve shed so many tears over the last 3 months but I don’t realistically see my husband changing his mind. Please no ‘just enjoy the kids you already have’ comments. I do/am but it’s not as easy as that.