CINNAMONSPICE
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I AM CURRENTLY 20 WEEKS PREGNANT AND I HAVE BEEN INVOLVED WITH MY BOYFRIEND FOR FOUR YEARS, BUT WE HAVE BEEN "OFFICIALLY" TOGETHER FOR A YEAR AND 2 MONTHS. WHEN WE FIRST MET 4 YEARS AGO I JUST KNEW HE WAS "THE ONE", BUT NOW I CANNOT STAND HIM BECAUSE HE IS UNLOYAL TO ME, HE IS UNEMPLOYED BUT SITS ON HIS BUTT ALL DAY AT HOME WATCHING TELEVISION AND PLAYING POKER ON HIS "I-PAD", I PAY ALL THE BILLS AND EVEN THOUGH HE IS HERE AT HOME ALL DAY HE THINKS IT'S A "WOMAN'S JOB TO KEEP THE HOUSE CLEAN AND COOK", HE DOES NOT CLAIM THAT HE IS IN A RELATIONSHIP AND HAS NO PICTURES OF US TOGETHER ON HIS FACEBOOK PAGE, HE HAS NOT TOLD ANYONE IN HIS FAMILY THAT I AM PREGNANT, HE REFUSES TO COME TO OUR CO-ED BABY SHOWER (WHICH IS ONLY GOING TO MAKE MY FAMILY HATE HIM MORE THAN THEY ALREADY DO), HE IS VERY INSENSITIVE TOWARDS THE PREGNANCY; FOR EXAMPLE, HE IS ALWAYS SAYING "DON'T COMPLAIN ABOUT BEING SICK BECAUSE I TOLD YOU WHAT YOU SHOULD HAVE DONE BUT YOU DIDN'T LISTEN" (HE WANTED ME TO MAKE THE CHOICE TO NOT HAVE IT, BUT I REFUSED). HE ALSO KEEPS SAYING "I DON'T WANT ANYMORE KIDS... I DIDN'T WANT TO BE 40 YEARS OLD HAVING ANOTHER CHILD!" (I AM 29 YEARS OLD AND HE IS 40 YEARS OLD) AND BY THE WAY... I FOUND OUT AFTER I WAS PREGNANT THAT HE HAS 2 OTHER KIDS THAT HE'S NEVER TOLD ME ABOUT! (WHEN WE FIRST MET HE TOLD ME HE ONLY HAD ONE SON) SO I AM GOING TO BE THE FOURTH MOTHER OF ONE OF HIS CHILDREN... I AM VERY UPSET ABOUT THAT! I FEEL VERY LONELY, SAD AND USED. I FEEL STUPID FOR BEING FAITHFULLY INVOLVED WITH SOMEONE FOR SO LONG AND JUST NOW REALIZING I HAVE NO IDEA WHO HE IS.... OR NOW THAT I AM PREGNANT, I AM NO LONGER BLIND AND I SEE HIM FOR WHAT HE TRULY IS... AN ARROGANT, COLD-HEARTED SNAKE! BUT YET I LOVE HIM SOOOOOO MUCH, BUT I AM NOT HAPPY AT ALL AND I HAVE TRIED TO TALK TO HIM SEVERAL TIMES ABOUT HOW I FEEL BUT HE ALWAYS BLAMES EVERYTHING ON ME FOR CHOOSING TO KEEP THE BABY. I AM SCARED AND FEEL ASHAMED... I ALREADY HAVE A SEVEN YEAR OLD SON AND THE FATHER IS ABSENT, AND I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD BE IN A SITUATION TO RAISE ANOTHER CHILD AS A SINGLE PARENT AGAIN... I AM SO SCARED TO BE ALONE AND I AM SCARED OF WHAT ALL MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY ARE GOING TO SAY... IV'E BEEN CRYING AND PRAYING SO HARD FOR A SOLUTION TO THIS.. I WISH HE WOULD CHANGE SO WE COULD BE A HAPPY FAMILY! WE HAVE BEEN DISCUSSING MARRIAGE FOR THE LONGEST TIME, AND HE'S TAKEN ME TO THE JEWELER'S AS WELL, BUT IT HAS BEEN FOUR YEARS, AND AT THIS POINT I BELIEVE HE IS JUST PLAYING GAMES WITH MY HEART.. STRINGING ME ALONG. COULD SOMEONE PLEASE GIVE ME SOME ADVICE ON WHAT I SHOULD DO OR HOW I SHOULD COPE WITH THIS SITUATION?