lovelylaura
3 little girls
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So we had our scan today baby is perfect. It's our 3rd girl. But i just can't stop crying. This is it for us, no little boy. Never. We won't get to have our baby Elliot. My husband won't get to kick a ball around with him. There will be no one to carry on our family name. I won't get to decorate a room with blue or buy his first pair of football boots.
I feel awful such an ungrateful cow. People long for babys and here i am wishing that we hadn't tried just one more time. I only wanted 2 children. But we both wanted to try again for a boy. And now our selfishness has been repayed. I knew i'd be disapointed but nothing like this. Please tell me im not alone. It gets better right? Everyone i know has got a boy and girl, but nope not us.
I just don't even know what to do with myself right now im a mess. I was so excited this morning feeling little kicks on the outside for the first time and now my horrible selfish thoughts has ruined what should be a beautiful day. I want a boy. I just wanted a boy.
I just want to curl up and make this go away. What if the baby knows? What if it will hate me because it will know that i desperately wanted a boy.
Please don't tell me how horrible i am, i already know. I just need someone to tell me it will turn out all ok. Please just a little hope that all this will be ok.
I feel awful such an ungrateful cow. People long for babys and here i am wishing that we hadn't tried just one more time. I only wanted 2 children. But we both wanted to try again for a boy. And now our selfishness has been repayed. I knew i'd be disapointed but nothing like this. Please tell me im not alone. It gets better right? Everyone i know has got a boy and girl, but nope not us.
I just don't even know what to do with myself right now im a mess. I was so excited this morning feeling little kicks on the outside for the first time and now my horrible selfish thoughts has ruined what should be a beautiful day. I want a boy. I just wanted a boy.
I just want to curl up and make this go away. What if the baby knows? What if it will hate me because it will know that i desperately wanted a boy.
Please don't tell me how horrible i am, i already know. I just need someone to tell me it will turn out all ok. Please just a little hope that all this will be ok.