i will ditton what every one has said before me. I wish you a speedy reocvery. although i dont know you personally i have followsed you through the past couple of yrs of PF and on bnb, and you have been through crap that no one should have to go through, you have a lovely daughter, and i am sure you are a great mum, other wise you wouldnt be worrying like you are now! i can understand you feel like giving up at the moment, i hate hospitals at the best of times .. just try and keep strong we are all thinking of you and we are reading your posts because we all care and hope you are ok.!!