I had a silent miscarrage early this year. It wasn't a planned pregnancy but my boyfriend and I decided we could do it together, we started getting excited and preparing for the baby. When I went for my first scan and discovered the miscarriage it was devastating for us. Everyone at work knew I was pregnant so going back was heart breaking. Less than a month after my miscarriage a female collegue from my team began trying for a baby. My team is entirely female, so every convasation was about names, clothes and babys. These convosations happened when I was sat a desk next to them all and they would try to involve me in them. She got pregnant after two weeks and I hoped that the baby talk would die down; when I was pregnant no-one wanted to talk about it, but everyone wants to congratulate her and talk babies. I've heard people comment on how 'it's her turn to be pregnant', and that she needs to be more careful than I was We get along well but I feel like her timing was so cruel, and her pregnancy means more than mine did to my work collegues. I'm desperately trying not to be jealous and bitter but it's so difficult and don't know how I'll cope when she begins to show. I feel like I'm a bad person, has anyone else been though anything similar?