I feel like a fraud...

[MommynWaiting]

So...this is my second month TTC (I haven't even ovulated, yet) and I've been hanging around the BFP boards...and...um...I got the sudden urge to buy a pregnancy test. Simple, right?

So I go to the store, get my usual odds and ends and head towards the HPT section (which took f.o.r.e.v.e.r. to find). As I'm standing there, I suddenly feel like I'm doing something wrong, or bad. I dunno. It's hard to explain. I felt like a minor about to purchase cigarettes or alcohol. I even felt myself looking around to see if anyone was watching me. LOL

BUT then, as I laid my items on the counter and clerk started to ring me up, she held up the pregnancy test and said, "So are we hoping or not hoping?" It caught me so off guard and I felt like such a fraud because, like I said, I haven't even ovulated,yet!!

When I got home, I hid them in my office drawer because I don't want my husband to see them because he knows I haven't ovulated yet and he'll think I'm coo coo!! It's like I'm hiding stolen money, or drugs or something illegal!!

I didn't expect all of that!! At least there are three in the box, so I won't have to be making that purchase anytime soon again!!

 

[SLH]

I know how you feel. When I bought $150 worth of ovulation tests the cashier looked at them and was like "Why is this stuff so expensive? Oh, you are buying a lot of pregnancy tests, why would you need so many?" I didn't say anything, but I couldn't believe she made that comment. They should mind their own business.

 

[Twinkie210]

LOL, don't worry you are not the only one who does it! I have a brand new box of FRER in my cabinet and I haven't O'd yet either! I bought them when I bought my OPKs, just to be prepared! The hard part is not using them all up by like 6 dpo (I get antsy and always test wayyy to early!)

 

[Kellysmom]

Mommy, I am exactly the same way except it's a normal occurrance for me!!!! I lurk around the "pregnancy test" area and wait for everyone to leave, then I'll pick what I need quickly and hide them under everything in the cart so nobody will see them!! Then I sit at the checkout counter hoping and praying nobody notices are says anything When I get home I hide everything as far back behind the tampons as possible so that my hubby won't see them, then when I POAS I hide the evidence deep in the trash bin!! I ask myself every month why it's so embarrassing for me that I go to such great lengths, but every month I do it again and again. I hope it doesn't mean I'm cuckoo!!!

 

[MrsAttard]

The other day I took a test knowing it would be BFN no matter what bc I was only 2dpo. But I had been feeling so strange lately, and my AF was weird last month. I thought, maybe I'm one of those woman that has what seem like AF for a few months? Highly unlikely, but still. Of course I hid the 'evidence' in the bottom of the bin too bc DH would either get excited or think I'm nuts!

 

[U347464]

Mommy, I am exactly the same way except it's a normal occurrance for me!!!! I lurk around the "pregnancy test" area and wait for everyone to leave, then I'll pick what I need quickly and hide them under everything in the cart so nobody will see them!! Then I sit at the checkout counter hoping and praying nobody notices are says anything When I get home I hide everything as far back behind the tampons as possible so that my hubby won't see them, then when I POAS I hide the evidence deep in the trash bin!! I ask myself every month why it's so embarrassing for me that I go to such great lengths, but every month I do it again and again. I hope it doesn't mean I'm cuckoo!!!

I had something like that with my OPKs. One time, I was just about to go to bed and had the urge to use one strip to test if O was coming soon. I was really sleepy so I tested in the bathroom but walked to the bdrm with the strip in my hand and lay in bed. I laid the test strip on my left side as I waited the 4 mins for the results. The left side of the bed also happened to be DH's side of the bed. I didnt last the 4 mins and fell asleep. When I woke up that morning, I immediately remembered the test strip! I was mortified because I knew DH must have seen it and must have had to take it off the bed before he could sleep. I was blushing and so uncomfortable the whole day.

That evening, I finally had to ask him what he had done with my OPK. He had no idea what I was asking abt, then it finally clicked and he was like, "are you talking about that tiny strip of paper that was on the bed?" I thought it was paper so I just tossed it in the trash." Damn! I should just have kept my mouth shut! He knew I was using OPKs but didnt want to appear so obsessive compulsive...seeming like I was testing like crazy and desperate. But that was abt 2 mths ago. Now we have been at this for so long that sth like this wouldnt make me as mortified. I share everything. But yes, I do feel like a fraud everytime I sneak into the guest bathroom to test with an HPT. I make sure all the evidence is destroyed. The little collection cup, pipette, actual BFN test result, cassette, test strip, packaging, plastic wrap, urine sample and everything depending on the brand that I used.

I'd rather he didnt know I was testing till I get a BFP. But I have to break the news to him every month when I get a BFN. He is pretty positive but I am always so sad and disappointed. Hope last month was the last BFN to tell him abt. Good news this cycle!!!

 

[maggie111]

The internet is your friend! And also a ridiculous amount cheaper! If you're UK based I can recommend what I bought

Totally know what you mean though, I have felt unreasonably stupid buying condoms and pregnancy tests before!! Almost like it's shameful or something. I feel like they'll look at the condoms and look at me and think "hopeful much?"

 

[U347464]

The other day I took a test knowing it would be BFN no matter what bc I was only 2dpo. But I had been feeling so strange lately, and my AF was weird last month. I thought, maybe I'm one of those woman that has what seem like AF for a few months? Highly unlikely, but still. Of course I hid the 'evidence' in the bottom of the bin too bc DH would either get excited or think I'm nuts!

I always tie everythng up in a little black plastic bag before finally putting in the trash. Apart from DH, We have one distant cousin who's about 22 staying with us and he is nosy as heck! I'm sure he knows what is going on. I've left little traces of tests, OPKs, OPK packaging around unintentionally at times in my bathroom or bdrm when I wasnt expecting him there. He must have seen at least one piece of evidence by now.

 

[AllMacsNow]

My grocery store keeps them LOCKED UP! :O

I lurk over there all the time, but am resisting testing until AF is late each month, so haven't had to buy any.

When/if I *do* get to go buy one, though, I think I'll go somewhere else, lol!

 

[U347464]

Mommy, I am exactly the same way except it's a normal occurrance for me!!!! I lurk around the "pregnancy test" area and wait for everyone to leave, then I'll pick what I need quickly and hide them under everything in the cart so nobody will see them!! Then I sit at the checkout counter hoping and praying nobody notices are says anything When I get home I hide everything as far back behind the tampons as possible so that my hubby won't see them, then when I POAS I hide the evidence deep in the trash bin!! I ask myself every month why it's so embarrassing for me that I go to such great lengths, but every month I do it again and again. I hope it doesn't mean I'm cuckoo!!!

Unfortunately, cant do that in my country. The pregnancy tests are behind the counter so you always have to ask for them. Then they will take them out and you have to go through the discussion of which type and how much is it etc? I now usually pick one of each and getting familiar with all the brands. I can look quickly and pick what I think will work for me and what doesnt. I usually get a variety. The counter is always manned by either these nosy young ppl, catty women or understanding older men. I always have to ask them before buying a test and I am OK with asking the first time I shop there. But after a few BFNs month after month and having to go back, I wonder if they think, "why dont you give up already, woman?" At first, I used to buy one or at most 2 tests at a time. I was always so sure this was it and I wouldnt need the rest after getting a BFP. Also dont want to jinx it cos if I get too many, then it means I am expecting a BFN first or at least for a few tests. But month after month, here I go again driving around wondering what new pharmacy I can hit up next!

 

[Hannah814]

Dont feel lime a fraud...According to my 2 clear blue fertility monitors i didn't ovulate but still got pregnant! xxx

 

[U347464]

BUT then, as I laid my items on the counter and clerk started to ring me up, she held up the pregnancy test and said, "So are we hoping or not hoping?"

She REALLY had no business asking you that and I may have had to use this as a Teaching moment on what customer service means and some sensitivity training. What the heck?

 

[U347464]

I know how you feel. When I bought $150 worth of ovulation tests the cashier looked at them and was like "Why is this stuff so expensive? Oh, you are buying a lot of pregnancy tests, why would you need so many?" I didn't say anything, but I couldn't believe she made that comment. They should mind their own business.

Once again, urgent sensitivity training needed. BUt $150 worth?!!! I'm sure I have spent more but not all at the same time.

 

[JRscorpio8]

BUT then, as I laid my items on the counter and clerk started to ring me up, she held up the pregnancy test and said, "So are we hoping or not hoping?"

She REALLY had no business asking you that and I may have had to use this as a Teaching moment on what customer service means and some sensitivity training. What the heck?

Huh! You think that's bad!? A few years ago when I wasn't TTC but was worried I might be pregnant (back when I thought one accidental unprotected incident would end up in pregnancy!) I went into a local shop and tried to buy a test discreetly hidden among my other household items I was buying. The bloody woman at the till tried to scan it but couldn't find a code thing so she pressed a button that made a loud sound and made the till light up so another shop worker could see who needed assistance then she held up the box of tests in the air and yelled can you get me a code for this??!! I was absolutely mortified and felt like everyone in the whole shop was looking at me!!!

 

[Kellysmom]

Mommy, I am exactly the same way except it's a normal occurrance for me!!!! I lurk around the "pregnancy test" area and wait for everyone to leave, then I'll pick what I need quickly and hide them under everything in the cart so nobody will see them!! Then I sit at the checkout counter hoping and praying nobody notices are says anything When I get home I hide everything as far back behind the tampons as possible so that my hubby won't see them, then when I POAS I hide the evidence deep in the trash bin!! I ask myself every month why it's so embarrassing for me that I go to such great lengths, but every month I do it again and again. I hope it doesn't mean I'm cuckoo!!!

Unfortunately, cant do that in my country. The pregnancy tests are behind the counter so you always have to ask for them. Then they will take them out and you have to go through the discussion of which type and how much is it etc? I now usually pick one of each and getting familiar with all the brands. I can look quickly and pick what I think will work for me and what doesnt. I usually get a variety. The counter is always manned by either these nosy young ppl, catty women or understanding older men. I always have to ask them before buying a test and I am OK with asking the first time I shop there. But after a few BFNs month after month and having to go back, I wonder if they think, "why dont you give up already, woman?" At first, I used to buy one or at most 2 tests at a time. I was always so sure this was it and I wouldnt need the rest after getting a BFP. Also dont want to jinx it cos if I get too many, then it means I am expecting a BFN first or at least for a few tests. But month after month, here I go again driving around wondering what new pharmacy I can hit up next!

Hahaha, I've wondered the same thing!! Pregnancy tests are so easy to get here, they sell them virtually anywhere. A lot of women (including myself) will go to the dollar store because.... you guessed it.... they only cost a dollar!! Every time I go in there I'll buy four or five to feed my POAS addiction. When I run out, I have to think of different places to go because I'm so affraid the women behing the counter will recognize me. I'm pretty sure I can tell you the location of every dollar store within a 50 mile radius now!!!!

 

[MommynWaiting]

This thread is cracking me up, esp. the one who had to get a price check! Wow - I would have been so embarassed. One thing did not occur to me, though - ONLINE shopping!! Ding! Ding! Ding! I've read many posts about "internet cheapies" but it didn't dawn on me until reading this post that I could buy them online!! Duh! Can you buy name brands like First Response online? That's what I got today.

 

[Butterfly89]

When people ask me rude, improper questions, I give a likewise answer like, "Well, I have a fertility condition and it can take a long time to conceive" etc. or "Not everyone gets pregnant on their first try" etc. Also because I'm young, I get even worse looks/comments sometimes when I buy pregnancy or ovulation tests. >_<

I understand some people are trying to be funny or nice so I never say anything rude to them! But when someone is being nosy or improper, I can't help it!

 

[kiki04]

Im not even TTC yet and want to POAS

 

[amariee]

I'm the same exact way, I don't know why its like that though but you feel like a little kid.

 

[mommy2lilmen]

LOL I am so sorry for laughing, I get that way when we purchase condoms. LIke really??
I do find myself wanting to buy baby items and Im not pregnant LOL yet