Rigi.kun
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I think I'm bipolic when it comes to this topic.
Some days I'm happy to put my hand on my tummy and think "I'm having a boy"
Other days I think pink.
And then on days like today I'm so petrified to think of my baby as a he or she. I do not want to find out if it's a boy or a girl, as I do strongly believe deep down I don't care as in truth my baby has been one gender or the other since the moment the little spermy fertilized my egg.
The thing is, I've noticed myself thinking "boy" more often then girl, but looking back at the dates involved with conception it's more likely to be a girl in my mind, but my mind thinks boy.
I find myself getting annoyed when people give me hand me down baby clothes that are mainly pink, and happy when finally I find something blue.
My partner's mother used her wedding ring to "predict" how many children I would have and what their gender would be. She got boy, girl, boy. And I noticed she's brought a few blue things by accident even though she knows we haven't found out the gender.
My mother really wants a granddaughter and nearly all my friend's want my baby to be a girl.
What I'm scared about is that my mind will think so deeply that I'm having a boy but in reality I have a girl and I won't bond with her.
I'm scared I won't bond with my child fullstop, which I really need to talk to someone about.
Some days I'm happy to put my hand on my tummy and think "I'm having a boy"
Other days I think pink.
And then on days like today I'm so petrified to think of my baby as a he or she. I do not want to find out if it's a boy or a girl, as I do strongly believe deep down I don't care as in truth my baby has been one gender or the other since the moment the little spermy fertilized my egg.
The thing is, I've noticed myself thinking "boy" more often then girl, but looking back at the dates involved with conception it's more likely to be a girl in my mind, but my mind thinks boy.
I find myself getting annoyed when people give me hand me down baby clothes that are mainly pink, and happy when finally I find something blue.
My partner's mother used her wedding ring to "predict" how many children I would have and what their gender would be. She got boy, girl, boy. And I noticed she's brought a few blue things by accident even though she knows we haven't found out the gender.
My mother really wants a granddaughter and nearly all my friend's want my baby to be a girl.
What I'm scared about is that my mind will think so deeply that I'm having a boy but in reality I have a girl and I won't bond with her.
I'm scared I won't bond with my child fullstop, which I really need to talk to someone about.