I want to first apologize for being a pissy today. I've just about had it and i am seriously going to chug my OPK and everything related to TTC out the window. So here is my story... I have been trying to 4 months now after a miscarriage in June. After it wasn't happening the first few times, i decided to increase my chances by getting OPK's. Well, this month i got most of the pregnancy symptoms i had the last time i was pregnant (very sore breasts, weird darkness around nipple, fatigue, cramps, backaches, heartburn, etc..) I still tried not to get my hopes up, so i waited for AF. Anyway, i made the mistake of looking up when a possible due date was going to be... i was surprised that it was DH's birthday. I thought this could possibly be a sign of some sort.... so now my hopes were up. Yesterday, there was no sign of AF and i was hopeful because of the all early pregnancy signs. Well, around 3am, i woke up from a bad dream (don't remember what it was) and i felt a gush. I rushed to the bathroom and what do you know.. the ugly witch came!!! ON TIME. I am so pissed off. I probably tricked myself into thinking i was pregnant or something. And to make things worse, i still have symptoms and i've just about had it with my body. I feel like starving myself for punishment. I am so pissed and disappointed. I literally cried myself to sleep because of all the hope i had that 2010 was going to be my year. The year where things were going to turn around. Yeah right. I give up and i am going to throw everything out the window. Sorry for the rant, but it needed to be done.