last night i had another dream that my ds was dead. that makes it two since i got pg (i'm 9 weeks) last night i dreamed that he died of sids (he's 15 mo) and we were afraid that social services would blame us and take dd away so we buried him in our back yard. then we took his ghost with us places so no one would notice he was gone. then one day i started crying becuz we wouldn't have 3 kids when this one was born just 2 kids again. it was horrible, i can live with feeling crappy all the time but i cant take dreaming my son is dead. sometimes pg sucks.