I just need someone who understands.

[ashliee]

Last night I got the courage to tell a friend about the fact that my period has been missing since June this year.
She told me she thinks I may have PCOS, I know shes not a doctor but she has it, she knows the signs.
I want to add that my mother lost her ability to have children at 21 years old, due to ovarian cancer. So for anyone who thinks oh you have time to fix it blah blah. No, I might not.

I broke down. Pretty bad. And this is what I wrote to her, crying. The whole time.
the past four years my life has been consumed with horrific things my whole world has been flipped upside down, everything i ever thought about life was proven wrong, there has been two things that have had me focused on being ok, that have truly saved me multiple times, gave my heart that tiny bit of hope.
One of those things is jase, and the other is thinking that someday i will have a baby.
My periods were always fine, never exactly on time to the day, but i got it every month.
about a year and a half ago i had my first real problem, i didnt get my period for i think 4 months, and then when i did get it it was ******** amounts of blood, after that it went back to normal, so i chalked it up to the amount of stress i was under, i was also severly depressed.
Everything was all fine i got my period at the end of june, It was completely normal, but when i got that period i was on my way to go stay with my bio dad and that family puts me under massive amounts of stress, I stayed there until august, ended up having an assload of sex, then i came back home.
I figured i would get it when i got home because stress would be less.
A week after i got home i got on antidepressants , and then at the end of august with no period i was scared, so i took a pregnancy test, negative, and then i waited 2 more weeks and took 2 more pregnancy test, this time digital ones, both were negative, then awhile later i was having bad pain so i went to the doctor and had them do a urine test for anything that could be detected by urine, all that came back was a uti, and it went away, since all of this i have been sick as hell, with nasty flus colds tonsilitis and bronchitis, ear infections you name it, so i have basically been on antibiotics for like 2 months.
Ive been thinking about going and getting a month of bc to see if it makes my period come, i mean ive been having the symptoms every month that its coming but it never shows!
Im really scared to tell my doctor because if i find out something bad, i may not be able to cope.
Im so close to my dreams coming true, but yet so far away.

 

[lizage]

I may not understand what your going through. But I will say a prayer for you tonight. Keep your head up

 

[ashliee]

I may not understand what your going through. But I will say a prayer for you tonight. Keep your head up

thank you

 

[mrsc81]

You really need to talk with your doctor, you may possibly have pcos, i was only having 2/3 af a year until i lost weight, they will be able to diagnose you quickly and give you help to get your af back on track. You are most likely not ovulating or ovulating regularly and i have read your post about using a donor to get pregnant. You really need to get your cycle going again.

 

[ourfate]

mrsc81 is right you really should go to your doctor, so they can do the tests for you and get you started on treatment. i was diagnosed june this year, and now seeing a fertility specialist, if you didnt go and go on BCP then you would have to stay on them for a couple months, thats what my doc told me, if you get properly diagnosed they can give you provera to induce AF

 

[ashliee]

Thanks ladies, im just terrified to hear something awful, I want this so bad. I do, and the thought of having problems is so scary

 

[Medzi]

 

[terces]

I was kinda the same way when I was younger. I was pretty regular, then as I got older my periods became less frequent and lighter. I finally had insurance and was able to see a doctor. At this point my periods had been maybe 2 in a year that were basically spotting for a few days. She put me on Provera to induce a period, which it did. A VERY heavy one. Since that first round of Provera AF has show up for the last 2 months on her own. Keep your chin up, it can be scary. I was terrified to go, but it ended up being ok. I will warn you if you do end up on Provera the first period can be very very heavy for a few days so plan to stay close to a toilet. HUGS

 

[JoycieB]

Im really scared to tell my doctor because if i find out something bad, i may not be able to cope.
Im so close to my dreams coming true, but yet so far away.

I know it's an absoloutly terrifying thing to do, and i know you're scared of the answers but trust me whatever the answers are, they are a lot better than the not knowing.
My mother was diagnosed with breast cancer about 8 years ago, fought that and won, then it came back as lung cancer earlier this year it spread to her liver and since then her decline has been uite rapid. Also about a month ago my aunt died of cancer of the womb, and it was pointed out to me that there may be a genetic link with 'hormonal cancer' in our family, and with me having problems with my reproductive system that was the first worry to pop into my mums head, then subsequently mine.
I still don't know what my chances are that it's just my reproductive system playing silly buggers or something worse, but recently after talking with some good people i've come to realise that even the worst news that i can think of will never be as bad as the not knowing. Because at least when you have answers you can prepare and act on them, when you don't know you're in limbo and worrying about the slightest of things. So i've now booked a few appointments with my doctor to find out how things are going 'down there'.

I hope you find your answers too hun, and i hope you have loving and supportive friends/family who can get you through this no matter what the outcome may be.


I will add as a side note, when my cycles were out of whack earlier this year my doctor told me even the slightest bit of stress can delay ovulation. So it could just be that even though you don't realise it, you could still be a wee bit stressed

 

[monalisa81]

You period is 5 months late, why are you waiting to go and see your doctor?!
yes the meds or stress can delay it but not 5 months! If there is something wrong,
they may be able to fix it, but you SHOULD go to your doctor ASAP.

 

[ourfate]

Just remember that pcos doesn't mean you can't have children, many women once put on treatment become pregnant! If you don't go for treatment you may not have any, if you only are ov 2-3 times as year and don't know when the. It's hard!