Last night I got the courage to tell a friend about the fact that my period has been missing since June this year. She told me she thinks I may have PCOS, I know shes not a doctor but she has it, she knows the signs. I want to add that my mother lost her ability to have children at 21 years old, due to ovarian cancer. So for anyone who thinks oh you have time to fix it blah blah. No, I might not. I broke down. Pretty bad. And this is what I wrote to her, crying. The whole time. the past four years my life has been consumed with horrific things my whole world has been flipped upside down, everything i ever thought about life was proven wrong, there has been two things that have had me focused on being ok, that have truly saved me multiple times, gave my heart that tiny bit of hope. One of those things is jase, and the other is thinking that someday i will have a baby. My periods were always fine, never exactly on time to the day, but i got it every month. about a year and a half ago i had my first real problem, i didnt get my period for i think 4 months, and then when i did get it it was ******** amounts of blood, after that it went back to normal, so i chalked it up to the amount of stress i was under, i was also severly depressed. Everything was all fine i got my period at the end of june, It was completely normal, but when i got that period i was on my way to go stay with my bio dad and that family puts me under massive amounts of stress, I stayed there until august, ended up having an assload of sex, then i came back home. I figured i would get it when i got home because stress would be less. A week after i got home i got on antidepressants , and then at the end of august with no period i was scared, so i took a pregnancy test, negative, and then i waited 2 more weeks and took 2 more pregnancy test, this time digital ones, both were negative, then awhile later i was having bad pain so i went to the doctor and had them do a urine test for anything that could be detected by urine, all that came back was a uti, and it went away, since all of this i have been sick as hell, with nasty flus colds tonsilitis and bronchitis, ear infections you name it, so i have basically been on antibiotics for like 2 months. Ive been thinking about going and getting a month of bc to see if it makes my period come, i mean ive been having the symptoms every month that its coming but it never shows! Im really scared to tell my doctor because if i find out something bad, i may not be able to cope. Im so close to my dreams coming true, but yet so far away.