melany
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I was not expecting this pregnancy. In fact, the entire time I was terrified. I have a 17 month old, how would i care for a newborn too? I all ready have no energy, etc.
But then I finally accepted it and really started to get happy about the baby. I started to cramp today and my doc said to go in for a quick check up. They tried to hear the heartbeat but couldn't so they went to the ultrasound. No movement at all. My baby died a week ago at 18 weeks. I'm 19 weeks now.
It's hitting me in waves and I don't know what to do about it.
They refuse to do a D&C so I am now in the hospital waiting for labor to start. I'm terrified again. I don't want to give birth to a dead baby. I just want them to knock me out and have me wake up not pregnant. Instead I have to wait up to 36 hours and go through labor just to give birth to a dead child.
I don't think I can handle this. I'm devastated.
But then I finally accepted it and really started to get happy about the baby. I started to cramp today and my doc said to go in for a quick check up. They tried to hear the heartbeat but couldn't so they went to the ultrasound. No movement at all. My baby died a week ago at 18 weeks. I'm 19 weeks now.
It's hitting me in waves and I don't know what to do about it.
They refuse to do a D&C so I am now in the hospital waiting for labor to start. I'm terrified again. I don't want to give birth to a dead baby. I just want them to knock me out and have me wake up not pregnant. Instead I have to wait up to 36 hours and go through labor just to give birth to a dead child.
I don't think I can handle this. I'm devastated.