Today, me and the girls were in the living room, Ella was on her playmat. I nipped into the kitchen and she started crying. It wasnt her normal cry so I ran in and Paige was pulling her along the carpet by her legs on her tummy. I dont know what I was thinking, but I pushed Paige away from the baby. Not a full force push or anything, and it definitely didnt hurt... but I still pushed her. She was very upset and burst into tears. She was upset for a while and was hugging me and saidsorry. (Nobody asked her to apologise) It scares me to think that I automatically did this... I didnt want to do it, I just did. Without any thought! Is that even normal? Tonight, after I read her book in bed, I told her I was sorry for pushing her and she seemed to accept it.. but I cant believe I did it. What if it happens again? Blah! Also, she has never done anything to the baby before. She is very protective and she was trying to move her (sometimes I pull her by the legs to slide her down her mat) so she wasnt being 'naughty' or anything. I guess I will have to keep an extra eye on her from now on!