Rainbowpea
2 girls and one angel xx
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Hi,
I am writing on here because I feel so sad and alone at the moment. I had a MMC in November 2009 and since then have been really struggling to cope. I have a DD who was just three and try to get on with life for her sake but feel like I am swimming against a really strong tide.
Everytime I have a quiet moment, like I am in the bath, driving or my DD is having a nap I am thinking about the baby I lost. I then cry and get all depressed and feel like curling up in a ball and doing nothing. I have no motivation at all.
We have been TTC since the miscarriage but no luck. I think maybe if I was pregnant again I would feel better? Anyway, my friends have all disappeared so I have no one to talk to. They were good for about a week after the miscarriage but now don't talk to me or invite me out and bitch about me behind my back for not wanting to go to big dinner parties. I have one good friend who told them how hard I was finding it and my husband also told one of them how difficult it has been for us but they still have not bothered.
It really got to me today and I told them I didn't want to see them anymore, I just can't handle being upset about losing the baby as well as being upset about losing them too. I also found out one of them is three months pregnant and has told everyone but us. I know it sounds harsh but I don't think I can handle all the baby talk without cracking up.
To top it all off we can't try this month as I need my wisdom tooth taken out and don't want to risk anything with painkillers etc or am I being silly there?
Sorry to waffle on I just really need someone to talk to.
x
I am writing on here because I feel so sad and alone at the moment. I had a MMC in November 2009 and since then have been really struggling to cope. I have a DD who was just three and try to get on with life for her sake but feel like I am swimming against a really strong tide.
Everytime I have a quiet moment, like I am in the bath, driving or my DD is having a nap I am thinking about the baby I lost. I then cry and get all depressed and feel like curling up in a ball and doing nothing. I have no motivation at all.
We have been TTC since the miscarriage but no luck. I think maybe if I was pregnant again I would feel better? Anyway, my friends have all disappeared so I have no one to talk to. They were good for about a week after the miscarriage but now don't talk to me or invite me out and bitch about me behind my back for not wanting to go to big dinner parties. I have one good friend who told them how hard I was finding it and my husband also told one of them how difficult it has been for us but they still have not bothered.
It really got to me today and I told them I didn't want to see them anymore, I just can't handle being upset about losing the baby as well as being upset about losing them too. I also found out one of them is three months pregnant and has told everyone but us. I know it sounds harsh but I don't think I can handle all the baby talk without cracking up.
To top it all off we can't try this month as I need my wisdom tooth taken out and don't want to risk anything with painkillers etc or am I being silly there?
Sorry to waffle on I just really need someone to talk to.
x