I'm newly pregnant again, EDD 30 Jan. With Eloise I was desperate to BF, I had an EMCS and didn't hold or feed her until 3 hours after birth where she wouldn't latch. The midwife, with my permission (it was very late and I was exhausted) gave her 10ml of formula. I then had a tough time getting her to latch at all. My boobs are huge (38JJ), my nipples are big (areola is as large as my two palms) and soft. I had to hand express colostrum for the first 24 hours. It took me 45 minutes to get 0.5ml and they wanted me to do it every hour night and day as well as constantly try her on the breast. I lost all my confidence at this point and at about 2am I asked for some formula. I then FF for about 12 hours until a lovely midwife, on my last day in hospital, helped me to express and get her latched for a few feeds. But when I left I hadn't learned to get her latched myself and so she had expressed breast milk for a bit. My mum, midwives etc could not help me to get her latched at all - noone seemed to get it to work for us! Eloise used to scream when she saw my boobs. The final straw was Eloise didn't wee in 24 hours and I was given a deadline - if she didn't wee by then then we had to take her back to hospital. I was besides myself by this stage and just gave up. I gave her FF (and expressed milk whenever I had the energy to pump) from that moment, just to get her to wee. Noone ever mentioned that we could've tried relactation when I felt more confident and stronger which is a shame because 3/4 weeks down the line I was beating myself up about not breastfeeding and would've loved to give it another go. So here I am again. I really want to achieve it this time - what can I do to enhance my chances of being successful? Do you recommend attending BF meetings in advance of giving birth? My midwife mentioned today that they've started a new bosom buddies initiative in the area that sounds interesting but what I really need is lots and lots of help in the first few days. Thank you!