I am in pretty much the same exact situation! I have a 12 year old daughter and havent been on birth control and havent gotten pregnant in these 12 years! Weve always done the withdrawal method but in the last few months hes been not withdrawing more than ever in the last 12 years (this is so TMI sorry but think this forum is used to it haha) and I probably shouldve gotten pregnant last month. I got really upset that I wasnt and started doing a lot of research and have been thinking the worst since Im 38.
I started bringing it up more and also started taking prenatals and trying to prepare and maybe make myself more fertile and one day my husband felt like it was all too much and said he doesnt want another kid and he wont change his mind. I was absolutely devestated but we talked a little bit later and he said he didnt want to force it and if it happens hell be happy but he doesnt want to try.
So Im like if you dont try then it wont happen! Some days hell say something about having a baby and I get so confused! But Im grateful for when he does make those comments.
I actually tracked everything this month and theres a chance I could be pregnant (only 5 dpo) and I have a obgyn appointment in the morning to start to see if everything is ok with me so Im kind of worried that Im not ok and that if Im not pregnant that I dont know if Ill get another chance
Ive just been trying to hand it over to God, take it day by day and have asked in faith that He will bless us with another baby. I also asked For God to make my husband and I have the same heart no matter what that is. Since then Ive calmed down some and my husband has seemed to come around a tiny bit so will see what happens.
Sorry for the long post, just thought Id share since we seem to be in the same boat! Good luck, hoping for the best!