I really DONT wanna go to the hospital, that's one thing I am dreading majorly. So it's meant to be the safest place, but for me it would make my anxiety ten times worse. I spoke to my MW about this, asked her if she could be at the hospital to deliver my baby, she said she only does home births to which I then asked if I could go with that! She didnt recommend it but said if I feel I really cant go to the hospital then we will discuss it at my next appointment. She feels I wont be able to cope with a home birth, though I believe it would totally put my mind at ease if someone I know, and have gotten to know over the course of my pregnancy, is there to deliver the baby, and not just some random MW's working at the hospital. Home births for a first time mother are generally a no no, right? but has anyone here ever given birth at home with their first baby? I wouldn't mind going to the hospital AFTER I have delivered Nicky, (though I know thats defeating the object a little), I just wanna feel 'safe' whilst Im in labour, and comfortable with the people around me. If Im in the hospital I just know Im going to freak out. MW thinks it's slightly contradictory that I would be willing to get checked over after giving birth in my home, but I guess it's each to their own. Just wondering if any of you ladies can give me some adivce and shed some light on how home births work. Thank you.