mugzy
Mummy to 2 beautiful boys
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I lost my baby boy last Sunday after an emergency c-section at 28 weeks. He lived for 3 hours, but was too sick to make it . They said he had an intrauterine infection and had been struggling for a while. I don't understand how I missed the signs that something was wrong. I had a small fever blister (I always get them when I get sick) in my nose that I thought was from a minor cold I'd had a few days before, but it was probably a sign of the infection. I had so many braxton hicks contractions. Everything I read said that was normal as long as they weren't regular, painful or more than 4 an hour. I had pain in my bump, I thought it was because the baby was in a tranverse lie. But I should of got it checked, and maybe if I had he would have been ok . I had seen my doctor 2 weeks before and everything was fine. I loved him so much, but I wasn't able to protect him and keep him safe. I should have been able to protect him.
I'm really struggling today. One of the two most important people in my life has died, and I'm so scared that if it doesn't get easier I'm going to lose Dan too. He has been so wonderful and supportive, but I can't stop crying. And I'm so scared that soon it's going to be too much for him. He's grieving too, and it's going to be difficult for him to move past the pain with me constantly weeping. I don't know how to do this
I'm really struggling today. One of the two most important people in my life has died, and I'm so scared that if it doesn't get easier I'm going to lose Dan too. He has been so wonderful and supportive, but I can't stop crying. And I'm so scared that soon it's going to be too much for him. He's grieving too, and it's going to be difficult for him to move past the pain with me constantly weeping. I don't know how to do this