I had my 19 week scan yesterday and DH and I have both agreed we don't want to find out the sex of the baby. We didn't find out for our first (a girl) and it was such a beautiful moment at birth that we decided we didn't want to know this time either. Well, when I walked into the scan room I told the tech and her trainee immediately that I didn't want to know. Although they didn't tell me when they seen the gender, the tech pointed it out to the trainee and the trainee started laughing and said "We know what you're having and we're not telling". The laughing and pointing led me to believe that this is a boy simply because it seemed like they were seeing a penis. You probably had to be there to understand what I'm talking about, but it just seemed so obvious that's what they were talking about. Later during the ultra sound they did it again and asked "are you sure you don't want to know?" I really would've rather they didn't say a word (like they're not supposed to), because now I feel like I know, even though I don't and it feels like the whole thing is ruined. If it turns out to be a girl, we'll be surprised, but the surprise of having a little boy is ruined. I don't expect anyone to understand how I'm feeling...I just needed to rant. I assure you the most important thing to us is that the baby is healthy. I just really enjoy the not knowing, and wondering until the last possible moment whether it's a girl or boy. I don't know what to do now, should I ask the OB if she knows what we're having, or should I just go on thinking I know.