I'm so out for good.

[Butterfly89]

AF came one day late yet I O-ed on time supposedly. I don't trust BBTs anymore AT ALL.

Also came with a giant pimples all over face and back attack after a month of clear skin aside from scars. ;-;

And bb's still hurt.

Wtf body.

Yep, this whole TTC thing.. so over it. I'm gonna become a stewardess instead.

Will they tie your tubes or take your hormoney parts at 21? Because I don't want to ovulate anymore if I can't conceive. I get such severe symptoms for 3 weeks a month that I don't want it. It's useless to my life and I don't really care. I just don't want any more excess hair or near baldness (yet apparently I don't have PCOS according to my old doctor?) so I don't think a hysterectomy is a good idea.

What can you get done to stop PMS, period, and ovulation symptoms? It's torture being "supposedly" healthy and yet not able to have children. I am done with it at this age, I can't imagine where I'll be mentally in 5, 10, 20+ years with still no kids, and all this BS going on. I obviously don't need birth control because that causes weight gain usually and I at least want to look good for DH if I can't give him children, but is there something that does the above without weight gain, facial hair, etc?

 

[MackMomma8]

Didn't want to R&R! I can't understand your frustration (this is only my first cycle NTNP/TTC) but I know it's heartbreaking when you want something SO BADLY and it seems to be taking forever.

 

[Butterfly89]

Thanks hun. I have really been considering though and sometimes I feel its for the wrong reasons for me. All my life I just wanted to be married and have kids, but I don't know if its really for me anyway. I think there are other things to do with life than just have kids and work, not sure what yet, but I hope I'll figure it out soon!

I think sometimes I just want to be pregnant because I want people to be excited for me, because babies are cute and adorable, because I don't know what else to do with my life, because I "think" I'd be a good mom but still have doubts, and because I want something to focus on in life. Those are really the wrong reasons I think!

 

[dachsundmom]

 

[ItalianGirl]

I completely understand where you're coming from! I truely thought that this month was my month, i had EVERY symptom. And then yesterday, AF came early! It really sucks.

 

[ania]

Dear Butterfly!!! I am so sorry the witch turned up... I am sure I am going to join you tomorrow... After so many symptoms, 2 FRERs were negative and now my cervix is low and hard... ready for the witch... and then another month of agony. I hate it. I have two kids but I am unable to conceive again... lost a baby at 10wks in May, had a chemical in July... I don;t even want to try anymore. I haven't got much moent and yet I spend £20+ or more every month on OPKs, pregnancy tests, pre-seed, DON"T WANT TO DO THIS ANYMORE!!! £20 gets me and my kids a ticket to the zoo and yet I pee on it every month!! Take care sweet

 

[Coleey]

Sending you massive hugs hun xx

 

[nicolololo]

I understand where you are coming from! I feel like I'm never going to get pregnant as much as I try and try. I have been taking vitex, my sister in law stole some and got pregnant one month on them. I also been drinking "woman's raspberry leaf" by yogi tea to make my uterus strong, putting a pillow under my back after some love making so those swimmers make it quick and nothing yet. But keep the faith! sooner or later a little swimmer will make it! Just sooner or later it will happen! I know it's hard and makes you tired but in the end it'll be all worth it.

 

[MichelleW]

I can completely sympathise, there are months I just cant stop crying about it all, me and dh have been trying almost 2 years and being diagnosed with unexplained infertility because they cant find anything wrong with either of us.

I'm basically in pain from ovulation until the 2nd day of my period, in that much pain that it affects my everyday life but I had a laparoscopy and they couldnt find anything, so they just give me really strong painkillers and just dismiss me off. I have had two miscarriages where the pain continued from ovulation until i had my first big bleed and they still dismiss me saying they dont think they are related and wont investigate until Ive had a third which I know is protocol but I'm so sick of them just not taking me seriosly.

I wont give up hope, but the first day of my period everymonth I spend in bed crying with my dh comforting telling me it will be our time soon, I couldnt keep going if it wasnt for him xxxxx