I've just sat here thinking. If it wasn't for my loss I'd be 21 weeks pregnant now. I'd be in a relationship. Setting up a home and all would be perfect. Well, in my delussional head anyway! Even though my ex didn't really love me so we probably wouldn't have been all that happy. I still have feelings for him even though he REALLY doesn't deserve them and I know this. I was just sitting here feeling lonely really, FOB isn't around and probably never will be. I just feel.. Unloved and alone.