"impatiently waiting and complaining" IVF November/December/end of the year bumps

[septbride]

Hello ladies!

Afam, I would have done the same thing with the psychic. What the heck, right? And happy birthday to your papa.

L4, I hate the "relax" thing too! People who aren't relaxed sure seem to get pregnant every single day. I know, because a whole slew of my non-relaxed friends are preggers.

Kirs, yoga retreat sounds fab. Have an amazing time. I'm about to go do some yoga outside. Sunlight and exercise all in one go.

Ash, GL with testing!

AFM, I started the Lupron last night and had my baseline this morning. Just got the call, I got the green light to start stimming! So bring on the Follistim/Menopur. Excited to get started and relieved I didn't have cysts this time. Phew.

Snow, Sandy, KChope, Michelle, anyone else I've missed -- hope you're all doing well!

 

[L4hope]

Hello all! Hope everyone had a good weekend! I was in Maryland at my MIL's for the weekend so my hubby could help update a couple bathrooms for her. He's been working his tush off painting, laying tile, installing new toilets and vanities. He actually is still there so he can funish up tomorrow. Me, I was productive too. Went shopping and got most Xmas gifts for my nieces and nephews. It always feels good to get that out of the way! I take my first Lupron shot tonight and only 4 more days of bcp!! Yippee skipee!

Ash it's always tough to decide when or if to test. Let us know when you do and hopefully you'll be announcing the first of many bfp's!

Afam, go figure you saw a psychic who didn't really know anything! Im sure there are some out there who actually might be able to see things, but there are soo many sheisters too. It's definitely tempting though!! Yay for baseline tomorrow!

Sept very exciting start for you! No cysts and your all set to stim!! Wahoo!!

All other ladies, check in soon and say hey.

 

[Sandy83]

Ding Dong the is here, which old witch the wicked witch. Ding Dong the wicked witch is HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yay!

As you can probly tell she has eventually arrived! Only a week late not bad. I did phone my clinic and there are all really lovely and considerate and listened to my rant! I tried to change my appt but they are completely booked up til Dec, so can not change but they put my mind at rest as they said even if i came in earlier nothing would happen til beginning of dec with meds etc with it being a FET cycle. They have said when i come in on 26th they need me and DH to be there so we can sign consent forms etc to move on to FET. So little happier.

Just got into work so will do personal soon xx

 

[Kirs_t]

Hi girls!

Just a quick one - to stop in and say hi! How are you all? I hope you are well and had a great weekend!
Mine was lovely - had DH work Christmas Party on Saturday night (I know how ridiculously early is that!) but it was a great night and then took my little nephews swimming on Sunday.
Had my blood this morning and hormone levels are looking good. As long as they stay good - i may not have to have any drugs for this fet cycle! More bloods and scan on Wednesday! Transfer will be 6 days after i ovulate naturally.
I'm hoping transfer happens early next week as if it is the week after i will miss the last week of the year with my class hurry up and bust out the egg ovaries!

Talk to you soon girls xx

 

[Sandy83]

Hi Ladies

Got a bit of time to do some personals!

Afam - Typical about the psychic i saw one last year and got told i would be pregnant with twins between june and Nov this year. Obviously that hasnt happen so bit Sceptical now!

Sept - Great news that there are no cysts and yay starting stims!

L4 - Glad you had a good weekend. Yay for only 4 more days on bcp

Ash - Are you testing early?????

Kirs_t - Fx'd that your ET is next week

Hope everyone else is doing good look forward to seeing some updated posts. xx

 

[Afamilygal]

well my baseline was all clear- NO CYSTS, HORRRAY!!!! so now we have the A OK to start lupron on Thurs and stims on Sat!
YIPPEEE!!!!

I am very excited. totally petrified but excited and hopeful too.

ash- good luck on testing!

sept- yay to your all clear too! congrats on starting the stims! YAY!

L4- sheisters. you are FUNNY. good call on getting some xmas shopping out of the way. I love buying presents, its the 'must buy by this date' that give me hives.

Sandy- yippee for AF arriving! and BUMMER about your crappy psychic but maybe she was a bit wrong and by Nov she meant Dec... here's to hoping!

Kirs- YAY for no drugs!!! I'll X my fingers for you that it stays that way!

love to all the other ladies!

 

[kchope]

Hi all you lovely ladies!

L4 - ONLY 3 more days of BCP!!! YAY!! You also reminded me that I need to start xmas shopping as well. Glad you had a wonderful weekend away!

Afam - Thinking of you and hope your baseline scan went well today!

Sept - YAY for starting stims! Everything will fly by now...I'm even in shock how fast 2 weeks went for myself!

Ash - Didn't get a chance to respond lately but wanted to let you know the scarf is amazing! I def need to start a hobby here real soon as I've become more of a hermit these days. Good luck with testing whenever you decide to do so...I also hope to be an earlier tester but sometimes I have to do a hcg booster shot which does not help with testing early

Michelle - hope you had a nice weekend and moving along with stims! How many acu sessions have you done? Are you doing 2x's a week now?

Kirs - such great news that your hormones look lovely and the fact you may not need meds!! I'm sure we all wish we did not need to inject ourselves with these crazy drugs!

Sandy - YAY so glad the witch showed up!! I hope that brings you some peace and know that December will be here before you know it!

Snow - how are you doing girl? hope all is well with you!

AFM, I've continued to keep the car in gear and am scheduled for ER tomorrow. This time round I feel so much more bloated with cramps and I only have a handful of follies how is that possible? Yesterday I thought I was ovulating all day and was in panic mode. Today the sun is out but very cold...I'm racing against the clock to get so much work done and I'm failing miserably before I call off tomorrow (nobody knows). I honestly don't know how any of us ladies have managed the TTC and juggling work. With all the emotions it's been amazing that I can put on my happy face once I get to work. Thinking of all you ladies!!

It's time to start gambling

 

[kchope]

YAY AFAM!!!!!!! I knew all would go well for your scan today!!

well my baseline was all clear- NO CYSTS, HORRRAY!!!! so now we have the A OK to start lupron on Thurs and stims on Sat!
YIPPEEE!!!!

I am very excited. totally petrified but excited and hopeful too.

 

[kchope]

I have one other question for you ladies...of course with all the timing of everything my DH has been sick since Friday. We already have sperm issues do you think being sick will have any impact for tomorrow?? He does not have a fever and I know sperm takes 3 months or so to mature but it's just been on my mind...it never fails!!!

 

[L4hope]

Kchope Yay for ER tomorrow!! How exciting...can't wait to hear how you make out. I'm not really sure if being sick would effect hubby's swimmers, but I would think that it won't impact anything since this batch is already matured like you said.

AFam, I said it once already and I'll say it again...Yay for no cysts!!! Can't wait for you to start stimming and get some good follies growing!

Kirs, that's awesome you can do your FET with no meds! Wow I can't imagine not having to take anything. Next week will be here in no time for you!

Sandy, glad to hear that pain in the toucous AF showed up for you. December FET here you come!

 

[Afamilygal]

Thanks guys! I am excited!

KC- good luck at ER tomorrow! WOPPEE! exciting!!! I second what L4 says about the swimmers, I think it should be just fine.

L4- the toucous... LOVE it!

 

[septbride]

Kchope, best of luck with your ER tomorrow! Hoping for tons of eggs. I don't think your hubby being sick will be a problem. I think it would matter if he had been sick 2 months ago when those guys started to develop?

Afam, yay for clear baseline and starting Lupron/stims!! We're in this together, girl.

Sandy, congrats on AF! One more hurdle out of the way.

L4, almost done with BCP!! Congrats on the Xmas shopping. That's awesome.

Michelle, how are stims treating you?

Kirst, amazing that you might not need drugs! That would be so great.

AFM, I'm on day 3 of Lupron and day 2 of stims. So far so good. Just hanging out and jabbing myself until Friday, when I go for my first estradiol check. I have low AMH, so I'm a little anxious to get the update on my response to the meds. Last time I ended up with 7 eggs and was super happy to get that many. FX'ed it's the same this time!

to you all!

 

[michelle01]

Afam - Yay for no cysts and starting!

Kchope - Good luck with ER! I am still doing acu but only once a week and will go before and after ET.

Sept - Yay for starting and no cysts!!

Sandy - WooHoo for AF

I had my day four scan today, e2 is only 153. I am a little frustrated, however they increased my follistum at night to 450iu. Hopefully that does the trick. I go back Thursday for another scan. I have 18 follicles, largest is 9.6.

 

[Sandy83]

Morning!

Kchope - Good luck for ER today

Afam - Yay! glad baseline was all clear!

Sept - Good luck for Friday im sure everything will be fine.

Michelle - sorry you were frustrated witht he results of your scan but 18 follies is great news and sure they are growing nicely.

Ash, Snow, L4 Kirs_t and everyone else hope you are well and moving along nicely xx

 

[michelle01]

Thanks Sandy!

I think the lupron really supresses me. Last cycle I did not use lupron and my e2 was 308 at day four. Unfortunately I don't remember what my day four was on my first cycle when I used lupron, but I think the increase will help! I go back on Thursday for another scan and keeping my FX'ed that things are good. Last cycle I only had 13 follicles and got 10 eggs, so I hope that with more follies this time, I will get more eggs. I do know that quality over quantity is better though

Hope everyone else is doing good!

 

[Snowbunny]

Hey everyone - sorry I've been absent. I've had some busy nights, but been following and thinking about all of you

Michelle - I hope you get lots of high quality embies this time.

Kchope - How are you doing? So excited to hear your report.

Afam - woo hoo! Clear baseline...I knew it

Sandy - so happy the made her appearance. I think she is really evil...shows up early when you don't want her and late when you do.

Kirst - that is great news that you may do this cycle without drugs. I always wonder if my body would react differently.

Septbride - hope the jabbing is going okay. Myself, I didn't mind the shots as much as the monitoring...blood work makes me scared...lol.

I hope I didn't miss too many people...much love.

 

[Kirs_t]

Hi ladies! Hope everyone is well?

I have been checking in and glad to see everyone is on track and moving along with their cycles!

KC - I hope your ER goes well too. Will be thinking about you! I find them really scary and exciting at the same time.

Sandy - glad you are set to start!

Sept - good luck for your bloods - let us know how you go! how are you going with the jabbing?

Afam - how are you? started stimming?

Michelle - hope you're feeling ok too? hope you get lots of eggies!

L4 and Snow - how are you girls going? x

I went in for bloods and scan this morning and am feeling a bit defeated.... my endo lining was only 7 and the nurse said that is the minimum cut off that they will go ahead with transfer.... I am a bit worried - will it get thicker in the next few days? is it even worth doing the transfer if it's that thin? and what is a good lining?? is it over 10? Sorry for all the questions!
Turns out i do have some meds on this cycle (I'm still pretty clueless at all this!) but it's just a trigger shot when i am about to ovulate... does anyone know why this would be?
have some joyful progesterone pessaries too. ugh!

This baby making business is definitely a rollercoaster ride! One minute I'm so excited and positive and the next is absolute fear and worry that it's going wrong. I guess it's cos we've got so much on the line... But having said that... I like to think that when we are finally mummies one day - we will have a perspective on motherhood that others wont have. I'm hoping it makes me worry less about the small stuff and feel so grateful for my baby - even through those sleepless nights and all to come! maybe it's rose coloured glasses - what do you girls think?

Lots of love xxx

 

[michelle01]

kirs - Sorry you are feeling so defeated; it seems we all have our ups and downs during this process. I am not sure where your lining needs to be, but I know mine has been around 11 during both previous transfers. I am sure your lining will get there And the trigger shot is to bring on ovulation; are you doing a FET or a fresh cycle?

Hope everyone else is doing good!

I go in tomorrow for my next scan. I have been feeling so sick this cycle The headaches and nausea are getting to me. ONE more week till ER..cannot wait!

 

[Afamilygal]

morning ladies! (or not morning to some of you!)

Kirs- I am inclined to believe that this whole experience puts us all at an advantage (one of the only ones!) when it comes to gratitude. I think when things come easily, people become more complacent and forget to enjoy what it is that they have (or feel entitled to it) so having been through what we all have, there is something unique that we have that the 'fertiles' don't. We have perspective. I do think though that it is easy to lose perceptive given enough time and it is really important to never forget these important lessons we have learned. I think it would be a shame to have this advantage and let ourselves forget.
There are a lot of women who once pregnant no longer feel infertile and are prepared to let go of all of this (or who force themselves to forget as it is quite traumatic) and although it is important to move on, I also think it is wise to remember. That is how we keep our gratitude and humility.
I'm never going to be happy about what I have been through, but it has taught me more about myself, my relationships, my life than I ever thought I cold learn. And however bananas it sounds, I am grateful for these lessons. It is has been rally hard to find gratitude in all of this as there is so much I feel 'missing' but I have found it and it is changed me forever.

I think it is ok to feel the 'rollercoaster'. to be fearful at this time makes sense after everything we have been through but it is so important to have hope, to believe that maybe this CAN happen.
For so long I was afraid to hope or have faith in myself but now I see that's what I need more than anything. I was afraid to let my guard down in case things didn't work and I would be hurt again.
But I will hurt no matter what I do now- there is no protecting your heart, not here in this most dangerous area. So it is better to be open and to try to trust knowing that there is always a chance you will be hurt.

I have more hope than I have ever felt and I know very well what my odds are and what the Dr's think but I deserve this chance and so do all of you.


about your lining Kirs, I just don't know- what did your clinic say? I do know that it will get thicker throughout your cycle, I would ask them if there is anything you can take to help it get where it needs to be.

Snow-hello lady!

michelle- GL with your scan tomorrow- 18 is great!!! Im sure your E2 will catch up.

Sandy- hiya!

Sept- horray for stabbing yourself! (you know what I mean) can't wait to hear your report of what is cooking on Friday! Is it an am appointment?

L4- what's happening sista?

afm, I start lupron tomorrow am. yippee! stims on Fri (I'm a little anxious about the menopur - never done those before, it sure is a lot of mixing!) and my first u/s is next Tuesday! I am so excited and nervous! PLEASE be more than 4!!!!

love to all!

 

[michelle01]

Afamilygal - Yay for starting lupron and stims on Friday! The menopur is pretty simple once you do it a few times. The first time I had to mix it, I put a u-tube video on to help me And I suggest after you get it drawn up in the syringe, to let it sit for 5-10 minutes before injecting it. That helps it dilute the powder more and it won't burn going in; and inject it slowly FX'ed for your scan Tuesday too!!!