Inwardly screaming at myself

[kassiaethne]

I just recently found out i am pregnant again. But i just cant seem to relax about it. Every time i go to the bathroom i try to go as quickly as possible. Dont even wanna push to poo incase i "push" the baby out ...i know its stupid but jusT thinking about loosing this one makes me want to cry. I find myself just spacing out and inwardly shouting at my uterus to not fuck this up again and to hold on better, or that im just not going to lose this one this time. Just keep chanting that over and over in my head. And i cant just seem to relax.... I think i may drive myself insane with all this worrying

 

[Cata]

A couple of days ago i saw a beautiful video about miscarriage that said that loosing a baby is like wearing an ugly pair of shoes that you cannot take off. This is exactly the way I've always felt, it is hard to even get excited for a new pregnancy after a loss because of all the fears still inside of our hearts.

The good news is that it will pass I freaked out since week 6 when I found out I was pregnant the cycle right after my last mc and I'm not going to lie, sometimes I still check my panties for blood when I go to pee, it's just not as bad anymore and i feel I an allow myself to feel pregnant now.

I really hope you find peace very soon, have faith hun, I wish you very happy and healthy 9 months

 

[Feisty Fidget]

I am praying that once I am in second tri things will get better

Don't make yourself feel bad my sweet, this is all completely normal

Have you tried meditating? There are a few free meditation videos on youtube which are supposed to be quite helpful. I also know that circle and bloom do a pregnancy one which may help with the PMA?

 

[kassiaethne]

Ty i will try the meditation, cant hurt anyways

 

[Natsby]

I did a hypnosis on pregnancy after loss which really helped me. I found it on hynpnosisdownloads.com I hope you can relax soon.

 

[charl_uk]

your not alone, i feel exactly thhe same way! fingers crossed we get our babies (im due 29/11/12 and got my scan in 2weeks) xxx

 

[jaggers]

I haven't got my bfp yet but I'm sure I'll be the same way. With my first I wasn't scared at all (6 yrs ago) Second I was in the bathroom all the time checking. (Funny how pink TP looks these days huh?) I'm going with small milestones. I counted each day as a blessing and figure I'll never want to look back and be miserable about how I spent my time. I doubt that helps...

 

[Joanna82]

Hi kassiaethne

Do not make yourself to feel like that because it won't help you in any way. Just take it day by day and be calm. I am going to try for a baby at the end of this year or beginning of next and I feel a bit worried as well (I lost my baby boy in Feb this year). I will be trying to be calm and not get myself sad, I know that my baby wouldn't want me to be upset and nervous about it.

Keep calm and everything will be fine