Irrational (?) fear that I will die.

[dinkery]

I am terrified of the induction I have coming up next week. I'm afraid that with my heart condition I will go into SVT and my heart won't be able to take it and I'll die. Or that maybe I'll die from c-section if it ends that way. I mean I just read an article on a woman who died from hers maybe two months ago. I know people do this every day but just because mortality rates have gone down over the last 75yrs or so doesn't mean it can't happen. In fact I believe it's more frequent than you really hear of. I can't get the feeling out of my chest, it's taking me over, that apart from the pain and suffering I'll go through I'll die on top of it. I've been trying to just get as informed and educated as possible and have been listening to the stories of others to see what their experiences have been. It has helped a little but I can't shake it.

 

[susywoosy]

Its not irrational. You're scared and scared of the unknown. Its natural. I have similar worries as i'm worried attempting a vbac could cause my section scar to rupture and i'll b rushed to surgery and they wont b able to stop bleeding and i could die. I think we all need to get to the worst case scenario place, have a huge panic and let our emotions out.

i cried a week ago putting my daughter to bed and felt so scared i'd rupture and die and wouldn't b here for my DD or my unborn child. But i got over it, realised that i have a lot of gd health people taking care of me and that soon i'll b holding my baby and all thst worry will have been a waste of my time and energy. Yeah i'm scared but i know i'll b in best place and should anything go wrong, the hospitsl staff will take care of me.

try to relax, think positive and hang on to the fact that your baby will b in your arms soon x

 

[BigLegEmma]

I think anxiety is normal; I keep panicking the baby will have breathing problems.

 

[Leids]

Completely normal to feel this way. They'll monitor you very closely and will know if anything starts to go awry. It's what they do all day every day. If you feel weird in any way you can hit your call button and they'll be there right away. It's really scary but you're in good hands!

With my last pregnancy it was one of my worst fears. I constantly had nightmares of me dying. It actually got worse after he was born and I was terrified I would go into cardiac arrest/have a heart attack and randomly die while he was in my care because of heart palpitations I have.

This pregnancy has been better but I still have occasional nightmares of me dying and I would be lying if I said I wasn't worried about my heart giving out. I have to trust my body though and if anything feels even slightly off I'll tell my midwife so I can get extra monitoring.