Autumnflower
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Okay today is a bad day. I'm mostly just mad at myself. I'm currently on CD 37, no AF. For years I've had pretty average cycle lengths 30-32 days. Then in the last few months my body had betrayed me... My last cycle was 28 days and the cycle before that was 39(which until today I thought was 36 days)...thats right....I can't count days on a calendar. I'm not using temping or opks so its hard to establish when o day is to begin with and because I thought my longest cycle was 36 days I naturally tested yesterday (the day of my missed period) and got bfn. I was depressed and started counting old cycles and realized it was actually 39 days... So I'm pretty sure I missed my ovulation day by a week!!! AF hasn't showed yet but she might as well have. I know I'm not pregnant.. Stupid me for not using opks and temping. I thought that I could pull pregnancy off without them. I really wanted to be one of those couples that just has fun and a miracle happens.... especially since practically every female I know just recently got pregnant. So now I'm kicking myself for wasting the last six months just because of my own pride. I can't help but wonder if I had temp and opk'd this whole time I may have timed bd better and been pregnant by now. I know I shouldn't think like that but I do. Why is it every single person in my family is super pregnant like every day of their life and I can't even do it once? Isn't good fertility somewhat genetic...like cmon!!!!!! *shakes fist*