is it normal to feel this down??

[emme]

ok so a month ago i moved about an hour away from my home to get a house with my boyfriend. we have been planning it for over a year, and i was very excited. we found out i was pregnant about 2 weeks after moving in, and we were both thrilled.

however...

over the last week or so i have been majorly regretting my decision to move here, i love my boyfriend and i love living with him, but i can't help but feel so isolated, i have no friends here, they are all in the area where i used to live, and speaking to them on the phone is just not the same, i feel very removed from their lives. i know alot of it is hormones but i can't help thinking 'what if i'm never happy here' i cant see my boyfriend wanting to move to where i lived before as he has lived in london his whole life.

i had depression about 5 years ago, and i used to self harm and was on meds for it but gradually weaned myself off them over 3 years ago. but today i self harmed again, i feel like i hate this baby for what its doing to me mentally but i feel so guilty for feeling that was as i know its not bubbas fault.

it's silly that i don't feel like i can tell my boyfriend/friends/mum how i'm feeling yet i can tell a few hundred people on the net, i spose it helps that i don't know anyone!

does anyone else feel this down??

thanks

 

[welshmummy2be]

its not normal to feel as down as you say you feel but it is understandable, i'm in the same kinda situation (except i havent self harmed) i've moved from wales to england to my partners home town, i have no friends around here and although i talk to my friends and family on phone and internet all the time its just not the same. id advise you see your doctor, maybe they can help you and give you some advice or direct you into pregnancy groups...that way you can make new friends, hope you feel a lot lot lot better soon x x x