I don't know if this is the right place to ask but was wandering if anyone here was from my area and fancied meeting for a coffe with our lo's? I feel so crap recentley and like none of my current friends really understand what I'm going through. I do have a couple of friends with babies but other than on the phone they are really to busy to meet up. I am about to have quite major surgery due to the fistula caused by the 4th degree tear, just before xmas and it sucks. I am so fed up of everything and I think my "mild" PND has gotton worse, because (I know I am going to prob get slated for being honest but right about now, I don't care?) right now I am on here, typing, crying while my 14 week ld baby girkl is crying because her gums hurt (I assume?). I pick her up and cuddle her, she cries. I've given her some teething gel and she still cries. She has had some calpol and been winded, she still crying. She has been crying now in her bouncy chair for 35 mins - and I'm sat here, just staring at her. I don't feel anything either. Apart from annoyance that she is crying and I can't stop her. On top of this, I am ment to be packing because we are moving soon (locally). I went to my doctor and he diagonsed me with PND but said it was mild. So, right now, why do I feel like I want to walk out the flat without my LO? And just pretend that I dont have a baby, and that I don't have a un-healed 4th degree tear? And that I don't have poo seeping out my bits!? And pretend that my life is what it used to be? Urgh... this post has turned into a rant....I was only ment to come on here to ask if anyone lives near me. Oh well feels a bit better now. Although my LO is still crying.