Hi All,
Apologies in advance if this goes on a bit...
Me and my OH have been together for 2 and a half years now (married for 9 months). I was not ever in a position to try for a baby before and when we started trying just over a year ago I was convinced I would never be able to have a baby (I was 38, am now 39). Imagine my delight when I got pregnant in June (just 5 months after starting to try!). But then, I miscarried at about 9/10 weeks. We were both keen to start trying again as soon as we could, but I then had to have some treatment on abnormal cervical cells so we weren't able to start trying again until Ocober of last year. I know it's only been another 5 months and it isn't that long, but I don't seem to be able to shake off this feeling of failure. Failure for miscarrying in the first place and now failure everytime I get my period.
Sex beforehand was very enjoyable and satisfying and we would often have sex several times a week, sometimes every day and more than once in a day!
It has got to the point where I now seem to associate sex with failure (sex= trying for a baby=failure when it doesn't happen and failure for miscarrying) and this is affecting my sex drive. I guess there are issues from my miscarriage that are affecting this. I have tried to talk to my OH about this and he has been great. But however much he tells me I'm not a failure, I can't seem to shake the feeling. Is it time to seek professional help? Do I just need to be a bit more patient? I keep telling myself to chill out and it will happen when the time is right, but it doesn't seem to make any difference.
We are still having sex, but I have little interest in it at the moment...
Has anyone else gone through something similar? Any tips on how I can get over the barriers in my head that seem to be there all the time...?
I really believe I have no chance of conceiving again with my head in this state and the viscious cycle seems to just carry on and get worse each month.
Any advice you can give would be appreciated. Thanks.
Apologies in advance if this goes on a bit...
Me and my OH have been together for 2 and a half years now (married for 9 months). I was not ever in a position to try for a baby before and when we started trying just over a year ago I was convinced I would never be able to have a baby (I was 38, am now 39). Imagine my delight when I got pregnant in June (just 5 months after starting to try!). But then, I miscarried at about 9/10 weeks. We were both keen to start trying again as soon as we could, but I then had to have some treatment on abnormal cervical cells so we weren't able to start trying again until Ocober of last year. I know it's only been another 5 months and it isn't that long, but I don't seem to be able to shake off this feeling of failure. Failure for miscarrying in the first place and now failure everytime I get my period.
Sex beforehand was very enjoyable and satisfying and we would often have sex several times a week, sometimes every day and more than once in a day!
It has got to the point where I now seem to associate sex with failure (sex= trying for a baby=failure when it doesn't happen and failure for miscarrying) and this is affecting my sex drive. I guess there are issues from my miscarriage that are affecting this. I have tried to talk to my OH about this and he has been great. But however much he tells me I'm not a failure, I can't seem to shake the feeling. Is it time to seek professional help? Do I just need to be a bit more patient? I keep telling myself to chill out and it will happen when the time is right, but it doesn't seem to make any difference.
We are still having sex, but I have little interest in it at the moment...
Has anyone else gone through something similar? Any tips on how I can get over the barriers in my head that seem to be there all the time...?
I really believe I have no chance of conceiving again with my head in this state and the viscious cycle seems to just carry on and get worse each month.
Any advice you can give would be appreciated. Thanks.