Its not going to happen.

[Aliciatm]

My heart says im wrong and that it is but my mind is saying its . Ive been crying most of today and just so depressed. I want something so bad and i cant have it. Id do anything for it... I have stage 3 aggressive endo with one tube blocked and my other one probably will be blocked soon. My life feels like its in ruins... I feel so out... Im only 3dpo... and on cd 17... i mean i ovulated i think well i got post opks but who knows... i tried soft cups, pre seed, and made love from cd 12-15th. took a break yesturday and gonna bd from cd 17-20th.... sorry for the rant and pitty party im throwing myself. but i just feel like giving up...


please dont tell me to take a break... ive already tried that... i took about 6 months off and didnt think about it.. it never happened...

 

[griffinh]

I wont tell you to take a break, or to keep going, or not give up - because i know how much i hate being told that. So here is a massive *HUG* for you instead

xxxx

 

[Aliciatm]

thanks... its been 5 years and no pregnancy or i think i just need support.. i feel like i wanna give up but i know in my heart i never will.... i feel so incomplete without it... it just hurts my heart

 

[hellypops]

 

[scerena]

Hey Hun I'm here if you want to talk anytime just private message me.
Please don't be down my fingers are so tightly crossed for you- they think I have one tube blocked but theyre not sure yet so I can relate to that. I'm here if u want support x

 

[dizzy65]

 

[court.]

If you ever want someone to talk to, please feel free to inbox me.

 

[Twinkl3]

 

[taylorxx]

Oh hun I'm so sorry you're upset.. Do you chart? I don't have much advice but just wanted to tell you I will keep you in my prayers, you deserve your BFP. xx

 

[cherry22]

Can i ask are you getting help from doctors at all?

You deserve your bfp And i very much feel like you will get it!! xx

 

[cebethel]

I know you don't know me, and I can't say I know what you are feeling or going through, but I want to send you love & & tell you that you have my support. If there is anything I can do to help you through your struggle, I'm just a pm away
I'm so sorry you're hurting

 

[Lollipopxxx]

Oh Hun, sorry your having a not so good day, stay strong Hun, you have been so inspirational to me, you've picked me up when I've felt down, and I would do the same for you, even more, TTC is hard, please I beg you don't give up, God work miracles and your time is coming soon, stay blessed and be positive, big group hug xx

 

[briggle]

I'm sorry but it's my job to feel lonely hopeless, empty and of no use and you lot pick me up! It's been a million years for me with not even a whisper of a BFP, I mean not even a cruel teeny tiny line. So We'll get there because we won't stop trying until our insides shrivel up and we join that saga cruise around the world with a bunch of spinsters and men that like to ballroom dance! I just wanted to empathise and tell you that you can never give up and definately are not alonex

 

[Aliciatm]

No doctors not until next year I have spot in march fingers crossed I'll get bfp before I don't temp well I did then kept getting up all different times tried setting alarm didn't work so idk I guess I'll just wait around for af..

 

[Glowbug]

Alicia. I just prayed for you I kept seeing you with a little boy I hope that will happen soon for you hun!

 

[Aliciatm]

Last night was my fourth night of dreaming I had a baby boy to weird lol and I kept seeing red birds for a week straight now... I really want that bfp I hate to cry and be all sad and negative but I can't help it the pain is over whealming and my heart Is aching because I know I was ment to be a mother but why isn't it happening why am I broken why can I just be happy with my husband and dogs... I don't get it I mean I can't stop thinking about holding my little boy in my arms all these dreams are making it worse

 

[jesterface]

 

[Glowbug]

I totally understand your pain!
Thats so interesting that you've had dreams of a boy!
I contemplated not telling you what I saw since I don't know you. But hope is good for everyone and I truly see visions when I pray. And I'm not cooocooo either haha!
 keep the faith!

 

[minties]

Please don't give up! You seem like such a lovely person and I bet you will be a great mother.

I TTC for EIGHT horrible years and look...I have my boy now!

I didn't chart or use OPK's or get any fertility treatment and I still managed it, so if you get help then I reckon you have such a great chance at getting that BFP.

 

[Aliciatm]

Idk yesterday I was so sad and negative but I'm a little happier now that I know that it's okay to have positive opks after the first at least that's what obgyn said... Hmmm maybe it will happen this cycle I hope so only three more days of bding then off to waiting a few days yayy