I've seen Beau!

Discussion in 'Miscarriage Support' started by Snowball, Apr 13, 2009.

  1. Snowball

    Snowball Resident badass

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    It's been 1 year and 4 days since our little boy was born sleeping. In that time I have never seen him. We decided we didn't want to see him in the hospital so he was taken away as soon as he was born. We were given a envelope of photo's the hospital took to keep and have had that in my bedside table ever since.

    Today the urge got too much and I ripped the envelope open. I peeked in for a start and then I looked. He is beautiful, he has chunky little arms and legs. He just looks asleep in the pictures.

    In a way I'm glad I waited. I have dealt with accepting his death so much easier without them but they are my closure. I now know he's not coming back but I want to spend the rest of my life keeping his memory alive. He'll forever be my little man xxx
     
  2. AppleBlossom

    AppleBlossom Guest

    :hugs: hun, I'm glad you felt it was time to look at them. It's so sad but now you know what he looked like you can have him in your memory properly :) x
     
  3. maddiwatts19

    maddiwatts19 Guest

    i'm so proud you managed to find the strength to look at your gorgeous baby boy :hugs:
    you are such a strong woman.. thinking of you all at this time, and i know he's looking down on you, watching over you and protecting you all :hugs: :hugs: xx
     
  4. moomin_troll

    moomin_troll mummy to zane and corey

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    so sorry to hear ur loss, im actually crying reading this. ur really brave looking at his pictures im not sure who id react if i had gone thru this.

    good luck ttc :) x
     
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    polo_princess ♥ Brookes Mummy ♥

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    princess_bump Happy Wife & Mumma!

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    :hugs: oh sweetie you're an amazing women, so so strong, so glad you have finally seen them, thinking of you so :hugs: x x
     
  7. helen1234

    helen1234 Well-Known Member

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    your very brave hun and you have dealt with this in your own way in your own time too:hugs::hugs:
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    Nikkinoonoo Mummy to a gorgeous girl

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    hayley x 1AngelSon,1EarthDaughter

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    Aww I bet he looks gorgeous. Glad you waited til YOU was ready and not when others tried to make u feel ready. :hugs: xxx
     
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    leeanne Mom of 3 and Stepmom of 2

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    :hugs: Beautiful little Beau :hugs:
     
  17. chella

    chella mummy of 3 & 1 angel x

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    Just wanted to say how i admire you in ur post u hav written and the way u dealt with what happened, bet ur lil boy was handsome lil fella , just wanted to send u some :hug:

    All the best in trying again and i hope real soon u have some good news as u deserve it xxxxx
     
  18. CarCam

    CarCam WTT after 2nd MC :(

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    I am glad that you waited until you were ready. I bet the image of his beautiful face is such a wonderful image to hold. :hugs:
     
  19. Rainstar

    Rainstar Mommy of a sleeping angel

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    Hi there,

    Just wanted to say your post really touched me and wanted to send you lots of hugs. I know your little boy is smiling down on you x
     
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